By hippie mama, 2010-10-08
why does my mom and my sister in lawand my perverted brother think its okay to comepletly ruin my weekend and break a promise that he wont be home till halloween and make is so i have noone to watch my son so i have to call off today. i mean if it wasnt for joe my father in law i would have had to call off all weekend. i hate them so fuckin much. and of course they all think that i have no reason to be upset. im blowing it all out of perportion bc i want my son to be in a safe place i suppose. i mean i know kai (my brother) sucks at life and cant keep a job past 9 months but i believe that having a job is good b/c it helps feed my family but i suppose im the only one who feels this way because they all are mad at me because i told them how fucked up all this is. tammy my sister in law says to other ppl to ignore me. yeah because thats just what everyone has done my whole life. just as my mom throws my needs to the back burner soon as kais needs come up. i mean im the victim and i just keep getting victimized over and over and it sux ass. what really pisses me off is that i feel as though my sons needs got put in the back right with mine. dude hes two is he supposed to watch himself. they told me he wasnt gonna be home till halloween weekend so if i needed my mom to watch him she could. but now that he wants to come home to mommys house early they all said oh well fuck her let him come home. i mean i only need this job to help spport my family ya know. and tammy dont know how it feels i mean she knows everything and it doesnt stop her and make her tink twice cuz shes so dumb she convinced herself that even though he admitted it at first since he took it back and said it didnt happen later then he must be telling the truth. i mean am i the only one who thinks i have a right to be pissed. i mean luckily someone offered to trade me days so i didnt loose hours but what if joes hours were diffrent for the weekend and he was unable to watch him then id have to call off all weekend and who knows possibly get fired. but noone cares about that. i mean tammy wanted kai to be home and since shes pregnant and hes my moms lil boy guesse who get the curb. me and my family. i mean seriously havent we been through enough?. why do they give him the right to constantly screw me over again and again.?i mean i now realize that for sure for sure i want no relationship with my mom anymore. i already have no relationship with tammy and the only ppl at that house i have respect for is my dad and my nephew is okay sometimes. but who knows how long thatll last. the apple doesnt fall far from the trees. and they are some tall fat ugly stupid perverted trees. so lets hope that saying aint true although he is a year older then my son and my son is far beyond him academically. my husband and i both think we are in the right here. i mean is there something im missing. or are they all dumb and crazy like i believe they are. i mean i havent been this pissed in awhile, i mean johns family all on my side. my friends and johns friends i mean they all see that my immediate family on my side is fuckin crazy. i just dont understand how i can try so hard and constantly get knocked down. especially goin through the pain of coming out to my family about this and feeling as thoughmy mom and dad tried to care but especially mom just couldnt go through with it. i mean its like she finds it so hard to love me. it brings me back to when i was a little kid. shed always tell my tha when my brother would hurt me and beat me up that is was probably brcause i was instigating it. which most the time he just tortured me because he was dumb and got made fun of in school. so no wonder i didnt tell her about the "real" abuse until i was in my 20s i mean can u blame me. look how well she handles it now. it just really makes me sad. i mean that now at 24 i finally realize i will never have a real relationship with her after yrs of trying and failing. as far my sister in law and the perv they are gonna move to iowa supposedly and i know its so her kids wont ever find out about what theyre daddy did. cuz my son knows that hes a bad man. i didnt explain cuz hes to young i just told him if u see him anywhere dont go near him cuz hes a bad man and he was mean to mommy.cuz i mean i dont want to scare him i just want him to knowso i know thats why.
By Carlos Parra, 2010-10-06
Hello,Been having major problems finding people to dread me up in the SoCal area!! Anyone out there willing to dread me up!?!?!
By Naomi, 2010-10-05
Im a little better than a month into letting my hair do as it pleases. While not brushing is awesome, in the last week, my hair is flat, and heavy, and i feel an all around 'ick". I wish for them to hurry up and just dread all the way up already. Ive got a couple really big ones, and a bunch of little ones. I think I can add pictures here or as a time line, im going to make one. My hair seems to be dreading really quickly.
By Mae, 2010-10-04
I'm about 2 1/2 months into my dread journey, and while i love the freedom of the dreads and the fact that i NEVER know what will be happening on my head when i wake up in the mornings, i do have one little issue. On the right side of my head, towards my face, there are 4 locks that are congoing, and it's driving me batty! From the middle of my forehead to my right ear is one big dread - not cute or easy to pull back! I was at a Wise Women's conference this weekend and asked a sweet sister what she recommended (she has been on the same journey for 2 1/2 years and had absolutely stunning locks), she said when that happened in the beginning, she would just snip and rip in places to manipulate the locks. That's the conclusion i had come to as well, but wanted to see what you all suggested. Thanks so much!~mae~
By Peaceful Dread, 2010-10-04
I've noticed that we now have google adverts on top of the page. Maybe we've had it all the time, but slow as I am I have only noticed it now. The ironic thing is that the ad-sensor has figured out that we might like dreadstuff and are trying to sell us wax and all the other stuff that we don't like. Kinda funny, I think. Maybe we should click the ads anyway, just to bring in some money to the forum. =)
By hippie mama, 2010-10-03
i just want to post on here that one of my later posts may have been a little misinterperated. the person who did bad things to me when i was a child has not touched anyone else and i believe its because of myself coming out about what happened to me. i came off really angry and i dont want ppl thinking that children are being hurt because thats just not the truth. i was seriously angry about finding out that hes having another baby because i selfishly wish that my own feeling about this person would rub off on others to see how angry it makes me. i do believe whole heartedly that he hasnt touched any child since i was a little kid. i can say this almsot completly for sure. i know i may have sounded really angry before in my older post and i said that her asking me what happened because he was acting diffrently towards him scared me into telling my family about what happened to me but i know that noone has touched him. and you damn well believe that my son is safe. i mean i know what its like so my kid doesnt get watched by anyone but my parents and my husbands dad because they wouldnt let anything bad happen to anyone. they are well trusted individuals and i know for a fact they would protect them just as well as i would. so i just wanted to clear all this up. and i apologize for whatever confusion and trouble was caused by my earlier angry post.i mean seriously besides how much i hate my brother for doing what he did that one time to me and as dumb as i think my sister in law is for staying with him after i told everyone what happened i mean she can be a good mom. given the hand she has been dealt with her past of foster care and abuse shes actually been a good mom and since ive told her about this ive noticed that when my brother is around she doesnt leave him alone with him. shes been real good with that. plus i mean im sure she probably doesnt really believe me to much about it either. i think shes realizing more now though that despite how much i hate my brother i still care deeply about my nephew and whatever this other child will be. but on the other hand of things they know that when he visits my moms house my son goes to my father in laws. he not aloud around or near my son at all. my son knows hes not aloud to be around him. but thats my choice. and trust me if i really thought that he hurt anyone else wether theyre related to me or not i would say something. thats definately not something i would just let go ya know. these kids mean the world to me especially my son. i promised gauge from the first day i layed eyes on him that i would never let anyone hurt him and even after i die ill make sure thats just what happens. hes my world. hes my life. and i couldnt imagine my life without him in it.i plan on writting more about this in the future if your interested. just how it is living with this in your head. how i believe this made me a more protective alert parent aware of all the evil around me. and how it can effect you relationship with friends and lovers.
By Andelynn, 2010-10-03
Ok, I promised some pictures and so here they are. This is after 1 week of me separating, twisting and ripping and a little backcombing. I just washed my hair/head using a BS mixture with some drops of tea tree oil, peppermint, rosemary and lilac oils and then I used a mixture of Apple Cider vinigar and water - first time with the AC rinse and I got to say - I'm amazed at how soft my hair feels right now. Anyway, like I said this picture was taken just a few hours after I washed so my hair is pretty fuzzy right now.Ok, ok, I can not lie. My hair is always fuzzy these days. I spent some time this evening looking through the forum with pictures of different stages and that was really encouraging. I am guessing that it will take a number of months for these to tighten up and look like real dreads. I'm not doing anything to them now that they are all on their paths - which I love! I just put a tam on and go! My friend made me a tam to wear at night too - it has a string on it so I can tie it tightly around my face and it won't fall off during the night! lol! I look a little silly but I got to say, I love it! My head is so comfy and cozy at night! The tam is kind of large so all the baby dreads can move around in it while the thing is firmly attached. Brilliant!So without further ado - here are the pix - let me know what you guys think!
By Gary Charlesworth, 2010-09-27
Ok so today's been a bad day.My dreads are fine, and tightning nicely. But thats not why it's a bad day.For the past 4 years, i've been single. To start with I was fine with that. I had no one to answer to and I could do my own thing. Recently though, things aren't that good.About a year ago I decided that I needed a companion/lover/girlfriend. This sounds easier than it actually is.I've tried speed dating, internet dating, singles nights, going out more, going out less. In fact I've tried everything. And how many girls have shown an interest? None!I 4 years of being single I have had no physical or mental intamacy with anyone. And this is starting to get me down. I would have thought there would be SOMEONE who would be interested in me. But no.If ever I try and talk to a girl in a bar or at a party, I just get blanked, they walk away, and I'm left bursing a beer and spending the rest of the night alone. This then gets me thinking if there's something wrong with me.All of my friends (except maybe one or two, who are single because they just get stoned all day) are in relationships or married, so it's not as though I have a wing man to help out!Am I doomed to spend the rest of eternity on my own, or will I finally find someone who just wants to hang out and have a good time? Only time will tell, and I guess tomorrow never knows. Until then I'll just muddle through and hope my life gains some sort of direction soon!
By Andelynn, 2010-09-27
I am about halfway done with my head - it's going slow because my arms, wrists and fingers get pretty sore, but overall, I'm loving how it's turning out. But...AAAAAAaaarrrrrrrgh!!!! I've got the itchies! Last week, I washed my hair for the first time with the baking soda recipe found on this forum site and it worked wonderfully. I washed my hair a second time with it this past Saturday - just 2 days ago - and I've got the itchies and some dandruff already!!! I have not tried the AC wash yet, but since I know I won't make it till Saturday before washing my head again, I will try it - probably tonight as soon as I get home from work. I will be gritting my teeth all day trying not to scratch! I know that we have very hard water in my area so maybe that has something to do with it. I also realized pretty quickly while in the shower that I didn't use enough peppermint and tea tree oil in the mixture I made up this time. I felt some tingling, but not like the first time I made it and I think that has a lot to do with it. My friend who is a hairdresser once told me that using something that has a "refreshing" or "tingling" sensation to it is good for those who have dandruff because it is opening up the pores - which is one reason why I included peppermint in my mix. And, as SE has suggested, rinsing the final rinse with cold water is good - because it closes your pores. Maybe I didn't rinse enough this time - I don't know. But you can be sure I will be washing my scalp again this evening or I might just go stark raving mad!lol!!!!
By Peaceful Dread, 2010-09-26
I experienced something very cool last night. I was invited to a house concert with Francis Dunnery http://www.myspace.com/francisdunnerymusic without having any idea of what a house concert is. But God, it was soo cool. We were like 40 ppl gathering up in someone's house, paying by the door to see this guy, Francis Dunnery, that I never ever heard of before. He apparently used to be a front figure in some progressive rock band in the 80's.Anyway, Francis Dunnery proved to be the greatest of performers, he had the whole crowd under his spell for a hundred minutes, talking and singing for us. We all sang along and laughed ourselves sick listening to his stories. It was the best concert experience I had in years.This guy is doing house concerts all over the world, bookable sometimes via some of his webpages. If you want to share a cool experience with your friends, you should definitely book this guy. He is a blast.