any craft store..most usually have them in bulk and you can sort through and pick the ones you like )) you just gotta make sure you find ones with big enough holes!!!
not at all, i know what you mean and how you feel. remember that our one true soulmate is our inner being.. you really get to learn and grow by yourself and experiance things without the critisism of those you once found imoprtant in your life. i came to realize that im always going to have negative people in my life but the key is to accept and choose how you can react to those people. and i try to remember when someone is ignorant or judgemental, to just love, because you never know the battles others are sufftering