Repressed Sexuality
General Talk
Such an interesting subject here! I never understood why people tend to freak out so much about sex and nude bodies. When I was a kid, my mother and father (both sexually abused in their childhood) wanted my sister and me to feel comfortable with human bodies. So we all took baths togheter, showered togheter and walking in the house in the bare was totally normal. They made me understand it was only ok at home though. But after being abused by my uncle, I kind of lost this capacity to feel at ease with my own body.
Then, after High School, I studied professionnal photography and I began to model for myself and friends. Since I was seeing myself as a character, not as my true self, I was totally ok with nude modeling. In fact, I was the only one always willing to model anyway. So I did it alot. Then I studied textile design. We were only 4 hippy girls in the classroom and we really didn't care at all to undress when we needed to try out some clothes we were making. Plus our sewing teacher was gay (but craving for my ass anyway haha). I really like to remember those days, cause it felt so, you know, just right to be myself, with my own body.
I've always liked nudes in art. I think a human body in the bare is absolutely beautiful, true, easthetic, natural and free. As a pansexual, I don't see people as sexual. I see them as individuals. Of course, if i like someone, I have sexual desire for the person, but otherwise, they are only human bodies (with a soul and everything else of course haha). And I don't care about busts, nipples, vaginas, penises, etc. All those body parts are beautiful in their own way, and in being part of a whole. I know pansexuality is not the most common thing on earth, but I'm so glad to be a part of it. It helps me having a more innocent and non-biased look on nude bodies. But because I'm this different, I really can't understand why some people are so freaked out by boobs and crotches. And I know so much of this kind of people. I don't even do artistic nude self-portraits anymore, cause I can't show them. People are just so puritanical. They really act like I was in the wrong to show my body, when THEY are not able to control their own while looking at my pictures.
I totally agree with everyone who said making something taboo is making perversions. I used to read alot of mangas before. Japanese culture is so so so prude. So instead of exploring their sexuality in a natural and healthy way, they write/draw really hard core pervy mangas. There is so much sexual perversions sometimes, this is just totally disgusting. Even relationships are perverted. And we all know what religions have made with sex. Ah, anyway. I just went harvest blueberries in the woods today. And I was pissed at this stupid world. So I took of my shirt, let my boobies free in the warm sun, took some beautiful shot with my husband and felt free. Love to all.