Hello there. I've been away for more than a month, and I missed you. I had to deal with some intense family issues, but everything has been taking care of, so I'm back.
So, I have something troubling me. Since I was a kid, I've been told countless times I am to be a shaman, a priestess or something like that. People have been calling me a witch for many years, wich I find amusing. But this goes deeper than amusement. I do fit with the shaman's definition. I come from a family of mediums and natural healers and I've been instructed to this since very young. And my father, if he wouldn't prefer to call himself a Lightworker, could definitely be called a shaman.
The thing is, I'm scared. I'm scared to accept all this. I'm scared to be seen as a freak. I've been through alot during High School because of this side of me. And when I could finally walk away from my village, I rejected all this stuff. But even though I've been trying to escape my true self, it just always came back to me in the most unexpected ways. I also been pretty sick in the last years, and wise people have been telling me it's because I keep rejecting myself, my "mission", my "gifts". Maybe they are right. I don't know. I'm really scared about all this, because I don't feel I have what it takes to be what I'm supposed to be supposed to be. And most of all, I'm scared of accepting it, and then not being able to help people.
Well, that's about it. I'm scared. And confused. And I've been without a mentor for 2 years now, so I don't really have anybody to talk about this with. I'm hoping to have your opinion about this. Should I accept my "fate"? Should I go all out? Or should I keep fleeing? And maybe, just like I met the right person to help me with my writing issues on here, I'll also find someone to give me the right advice about this issue
Love to all of you, beautiful people.
updated by @la-renarde: 11/10/15 08:25:24PM