When it happens, I simply tell people this is a myth. That I do wash my hair and that this is the best way to grow dreads. Usually, they trust me and then ask more questions about my dreadlocks. I know I've been really lucky with people so far, but I think sincerity and simple truth is the better way to go about it. And if they don't believe you, what more can you do? Just ignore it and try not taking it personally.
I think you are right. I need to heal myself first, then what must happen will happen. I'm not running away anymore. I've come to accept what I am. I'm still afraid, but less and less. I'm even beginning to not care about what people may think about me. And it's been a really long time since I felt this way. I changed my name to one that fits my life path better and I really feel the change. I trust it will be more and more benefiting to me as I become habituated to be the new me. Thanks for your reply 
Thanks for your reply.
Lucid, you are so right about living the present. I tend to forget to simply do that.
Brandi, sorry if I wasn't clear. My parents never forced me to do this, or study this. On the contrary, I've always been quite happy in this kind of world. They love me, whatever I chose to do or to be. I would really be proud and happy to be a shaman. It's just that I'm afraid to take this responsibility. Because I don't feel wise enough to be someone others seek for guidance. Thanks for your concern, you certainly are right about it being my, and mine only, choice and happiness.
SE, thanks. You always find the right thing to say. I never quite thought about it before, but this is true that my parents always were deeply respected by others. People used to come to our house for help, opinions, healing sessions and guidance. And I felt really proud about it. But proud in a deeply humble way. It just felt so right to me, to be a part of this. I felt at home. And I truly wish to feel at home again. I'm working hard to get rid of all my fears and trust myself more. I talked about all this a bit with my mom today, and she offered me her help. I think I'll try to visit my parents soon, to go back to my spiritual roots and learn from my first teachers once again. Thank you very much.
Hello there. I've been away for more than a month, and I missed you. I had to deal with some intense family issues, but everything has been taking care of, so I'm back.
So, I have something troubling me. Since I was a kid, I've been told countless times I am to be a shaman, a priestess or something like that. People have been calling me a witch for many years, wich I find amusing. But this goes deeper than amusement. I do fit with the shaman's definition. I come from a family of mediums and natural healers and I've been instructed to this since very young. And my father, if he wouldn't prefer to call himself a Lightworker, could definitely be called a shaman.
The thing is, I'm scared. I'm scared to accept all this. I'm scared to be seen as a freak. I've been through alot during High School because of this side of me. And when I could finally walk away from my village, I rejected all this stuff. But even though I've been trying to escape my true self, it just always came back to me in the most unexpected ways. I also been pretty sick in the last years, and wise people have been telling me it's because I keep rejecting myself, my "mission", my "gifts". Maybe they are right. I don't know. I'm really scared about all this, because I don't feel I have what it takes to be what I'm supposed to be supposed to be. And most of all, I'm scared of accepting it, and then not being able to help people.
Well, that's about it. I'm scared. And confused. And I've been without a mentor for 2 years now, so I don't really have anybody to talk about this with. I'm hoping to have your opinion about this. Should I accept my "fate"? Should I go all out? Or should I keep fleeing? And maybe, just like I met the right person to help me with my writing issues on here, I'll also find someone to give me the right advice about this issue
Love to all of you, beautiful people.
I'm at 4.5 months and my hair was about the same lenght as yours before I started dreading. And it's about the same as yours now too. And it happened really suddenly. So I suppose this is pretty normal. By the way, your dreads are simply gorgeous.
My dreads get stuck in trees all the time. And since we mostly have conifers here, this is not really enjoyable. I always come home with needles in my hair, or little branches. I also live by the beach, so everything lying on it may get caught in my hair. Like dry algae, bird feathers, shells and more branches. I always get stuck in my husband's beard. In his glasses, or in mine. In my necklace too. Now I'm just waiting for my cat's claws to get stuck in it. This will certainly happen soon haha
Jojoba oil is the second best oil for skin care (the first being hemp oil) , plus essential oils mix really well in vegetable oils. I would totally go fo Jojoba, but any oil you mentioned would be good.
Such an interesting subject here! I never understood why people tend to freak out so much about sex and nude bodies. When I was a kid, my mother and father (both sexually abused in their childhood) wanted my sister and me to feel comfortable with human bodies. So we all took baths togheter, showered togheter and walking in the house in the bare was totally normal. They made me understand it was only ok at home though. But after being abused by my uncle, I kind of lost this capacity to feel at ease with my own body.
Then, after High School, I studied professionnal photography and I began to model for myself and friends. Since I was seeing myself as a character, not as my true self, I was totally ok with nude modeling. In fact, I was the only one always willing to model anyway. So I did it alot. Then I studied textile design. We were only 4 hippy girls in the classroom and we really didn't care at all to undress when we needed to try out some clothes we were making. Plus our sewing teacher was gay (but craving for my ass anyway haha). I really like to remember those days, cause it felt so, you know, just right to be myself, with my own body.
I've always liked nudes in art. I think a human body in the bare is absolutely beautiful, true, easthetic, natural and free. As a pansexual, I don't see people as sexual. I see them as individuals. Of course, if i like someone, I have sexual desire for the person, but otherwise, they are only human bodies (with a soul and everything else of course haha). And I don't care about busts, nipples, vaginas, penises, etc. All those body parts are beautiful in their own way, and in being part of a whole. I know pansexuality is not the most common thing on earth, but I'm so glad to be a part of it. It helps me having a more innocent and non-biased look on nude bodies. But because I'm this different, I really can't understand why some people are so freaked out by boobs and crotches. And I know so much of this kind of people. I don't even do artistic nude self-portraits anymore, cause I can't show them. People are just so puritanical. They really act like I was in the wrong to show my body, when THEY are not able to control their own while looking at my pictures.
I totally agree with everyone who said making something taboo is making perversions. I used to read alot of mangas before. Japanese culture is so so so prude. So instead of exploring their sexuality in a natural and healthy way, they write/draw really hard core pervy mangas. There is so much sexual perversions sometimes, this is just totally disgusting. Even relationships are perverted. And we all know what religions have made with sex. Ah, anyway. I just went harvest blueberries in the woods today. And I was pissed at this stupid world. So I took of my shirt, let my boobies free in the warm sun, took some beautiful shot with my husband and felt free. Love to all.
Francis is not THAT old. It's 4 years-old, but for a laptop that's pretty old.
It's a 4gigs and I'm using photoshop and editing videos alot with it, no prob. But I'm on windows Vista, wich is a real pain in the ass. But I don't have money to upgrade my computer.
I do regular defrags and take good care of my old friend.
I've been thinking of going Linux for some times now. Or install it and switch to windows only when needed. Maybe It would be smoother on Linux. Don't know. I checked my memory usage and everything was good. All my computer things are up to date... Mystery...
