diary of a dread abuser

Hello everyone, uh, my name is Gullbrandsson.

And I'm a Dread Abuser

For about eight months now I have been using and.. now I want to get clean, no, I've decided to get clean. I want to get it all out and start over, clean slate.

I guess I just woke up one morning and knew something was wrong, that something was wrong with me. So I got up to look myself in the mirror, and for the first time in eight months I could truly see myself.

I bet you're thinking "Meh, how far can you fall in eight months, I've seen a lot worse", but let me tell you.. Eight months is long enough, and it's taken it's toll on me..

I guess what I have been doing can be called a way of "reverse neglecting". I did not pay attention to what the stuff was doing to me, and I suppose the friends I had werent the best to rely on in this matter either. They seemed trustworthy enough telling me all kinds of comforting stuff "it's not dangerous", "you're supposed to do it" and since I knew they had been doing it for a long time, I trusted them.

I've been through this the hard way.. I've done it all- needles, ripping, "waxing", I've done concoction brewing, yeah you name it..

What's really fucked up is that I never thought twice about any of it, NEVER. It all felt so good I just went with it, into my own dreaded demise I guess, heh..

I don't think I'll ever get rid of everything, I think it's always gonna be in there as some kind of grim reminder of just how fucking stupid I was.

Maybe that's for the better..

I have been reading up on some threads here on the forum and I really feel I can get the help I need to get clean here. And I want to help others like me as well, I know that not everyone wakes up to see it with their own eyes, sometimes they need someone to push them through it, especially around friends that use too.

I remember one time when I was over at a friends place to watch a movie, and even though we didn't decide to do any she suddenly put out a needle in front of me and asked if I wanted some. I remember actually telling her it wasn't good for me, that I wanted to stop. But then she got mad at me, telling me how fucking wrong I was and the other friend that was with us started bashing at me as well, so what could I do?

Yeah, I used that fucker all up

My plan is to become quite active on this forum, trying to help as much as I can and I'm going to post another thread where I document my progress towards cleaning up, telling you about what methods I use and how it's working out for me.

So yeah, thanks for reading, I realize I made quite the novel here, bare with me ; )

I'll see you around

/G

updated by @d-gullbrandsson: 03/03/21 05:01:08PM

i'm going to rename this and move it to a different catagory im moving it to help save my dreads and renaming it "diary of a dread abuser"


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My new book Ban The Taboo Vol 1

There is hope for you... <3 I too suffered from wax, crotchet needles and the like. I wish you well on your journey. <3

So glad that you have come out of the darkness and into the light. I, too, tried all the concoctions that were deemed (albeit by the ones who stood to gain monetarily) "good for your dreads". I attempted dreads twice by 'forcing' them and using wax, lock peppa, back combing. Both times I ended up cutting them off and waiting for my hair to grow long enough to start again. After the second hair cut I realized that the lesson I needed to learn was PATIENCE. It took nearly 2 years for my very fine, very straight hair to lock decently enough to be called dreads. I am incredibly happy with my loopy, bumpy, unevenly parted, ziggy zaggy dreads and all the fly aways associated with them. And thankful for the lessons learned while waiting for the little beauties to show themselves. Happy dread journey to you G!

you have 2 drugs you need to get clean from

the wax unfortunatly builds up in your system dso you need an agressive detox program, once youve gotten it out of your system normal dreading will resume

but you also gopt to quite the needle cold turkey.

this you dont need to flush out of your system, but there is still a long road to recovery with harsh withdrawal symptoms.. you must resist the urge to use..throw it away make sure your user freinds know they cant bring a needle near you

get thenm help too as yu get clean

hold interventions

educate them

help them recover too

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My new book Ban The Taboo Vol 1

Thank you all for your warm welcome and support.

I have allowed this madness for far too long

>SoaringEagle - I do realise what must be done. I had sort of an revelation as I was skimming through the internet for help.

I have actually begun a quite aggressive but hair-friendly detox program this very day, which involves methods I invented myself. These I will introduce in another thread, where I will also depict the progress of it with both pictures and step to step instructions.

I feel strong and confident in my success of beating this Dread Abuse, and I will continue preaching the truth for people wherever I go. Unfortunately I have now moved from those old friends, but if I were to be presented with an oppurtunity to educate them I would do so.

/G

trust me you'll face plenty more abusers to educate


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My new book Ban The Taboo Vol 1

this is a classic.... well presented.... and so so true..... good luck bro...

my suggestion would be to attempt to comb and wash all the wax out and then let it be, to grow natural.. or if that does nah work , cu it all of and let it all grow out to start natural again, like mimi did...

either way, you are at the right place.... good luck.

I like the 'drug abuse' analogy. It all sounds so real. (It IS real!)

i cant even laugh with you guys...... ive been product/twist free for a month and im going through the craziest withdrawls...... i dont want, i NEED hands in my hair..... even if someone would just pretend like they were doing something would make me feel better..... i need a fix its gonna take some serious self control to get through this!!!