BEFORE READING: this may or may not make sense, so i apologize if it doesn't.....
the past two weeks i've been really having a hard time with my dreads. they started to really bother me, and the more i thought about it the more i started to hate them. i started to realized that i missed brushing my hair and missed being able to style it. also i hated all the negative attention i started hating the negative attention i was getting from people. my teachers look down upon me, and my friends parents look down on me. it's like my hair was giving people an impression of something i'm not. i started to hate how i looked, so i would wear hats and pull my dreads back. i even started to comb a few out. but then i realized something. i was forgetting something very very important. i was letting people define who i was and i was letting the negativity make me conform back to what i wasn't and what i was trying to stir away from in the first place. i forgot that i loved that i knew who was able to look pass my hair, at my soul, to see who i really was. and then i started to think, well yeah i miss brushing my hair, but i love my dreads more than anything. i miss some of my old friends, and as much as i want to be friends with them i can't. i started relating my dreads and my hair to other things in my life. and i remembered how freeing dreading my hair was. and how much i love the journey of it. and then i started to relate it to a relationship. i'm just having a tough patch. i'm getting thought and i'll make it thought.
to people who are in the first few months, don't give up. it may not seem like it, but you're changing as a person. you are learning and experiencing things that a lot of people haven't gone through. just know dreads are a beautiful thing, and they are a visual of how beautifull your soul is. and to people who have had dreads for years, you are an inspiration. just looking at pictures of really old dreads, makes me happy and makes me want to never get rid of them. it is helping me get through this rough time with my dreads. this site is what has helped me realize so much about my dreads and myself. so i guess what i'm really trying to say with all of this, is thanks to everyone here with your support.
updated by @Kathryn: 01/13/15 09:18:58PM