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piecing together my summer

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so first off I just want to say how thankful I am of this online community for listening to everyone, and being respectful and understanding. so this post is just to maybe get some feedback and advice on how I am going to put together my summer. Basically last summer and the summer before was just terrible. sat home all day. was just bad. I'm going to try and make something of this summer before I go off to college. So basically, I might be in a band! this is kind of bittersweet. like, i don't know if I'm ready for the committment, and have no experience playing in a non-school band, and that whole scene so i'm kinda nervous about all that... but damn! what an experience it will be! it sounds like a trip! playing shows, making music, meeting new people! it's a either take it, or leave it situation with such an opportunity, and im still kind of thinking about it... other than that, I'm frankly just TIRED of feeling like a spoiled
updated by @lino-sanchez: 01/13/15 08:35:21PM

mothers day gift

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ok so i kinda wanna make something, cept i make a card like every freakin year.. neeedd ideasss thanks
updated by @lino-sanchez: 01/13/15 08:34:53PM

I'm kinda disturbed by how superficial I've become

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yeah, i need to get over the whole "putting on an act" thing, and stop this irrational fear of me being seen as ignorant. i guess its just that, the people i usual hang out with or talk to, or "associate with" are generally very liberal, and into activism, and all that, and i guess i just feel pressured is all.

I'm kinda disturbed by how superficial I've become

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yeah definately. thanks guys. i shall make a list, and continue to play the guitar but what also troubles me, is my lack of a political standpoint. i really don't want to be labeled a liberal or a conservative or anything. and truth is, lot's of protests i find to just be pointless. like to be brutally brutally honest, a protest against capitalism, or big corporations.. i JUST DONT CARE. yeayeayae i know, thats bad, yes i morally agree with the moral side, but damn i don't know if i'd get into it enough to actually get involved. protesting for the purpose of protesting.. i honestly can't stand that idea, yet it has SUCH an appealing connotation to it, which i completely resent. as if, if you did nothing, you'd just look ignorant

I'm kinda disturbed by how superficial I've become

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yeah thanks se, with your words of wisdom. it helped. but on the regard of crusty punks... i have some friends who have like lived on the streets and backpacked on their own and all that stuff, and like i find that very appealing, yet feel somewhat insecure that i have never done anything like that. like, they have done something holy that i have not, that they are that much wiser than me..

I'm kinda disturbed by how superficial I've become

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yet some times even hesitate to say i do, and will just say like piano instead (which is also true), just so i don't get written off as just another guy who plays the guitar. I sometimes just wonder why people or a girl would be interested in me, if there are so many other guys like me out their, who are even better at what i claim to do. i find myself increasingly judgemental of myself, comparing my accomplishments with those of others, and feeling quite insecure. basically yeah, i am a highscool student who lives with his parents, doesn't have a job, never has had a job, never did any super big volunteer project, not too much really to put on my resume or make myself sound unique to someone. but then again, i guess it really is all just how you tell it right? I guess I'm just kinda drowning in how to save myself as me. While I find myself struggling to keep up with what i think would make me more "appealing" i feel I'd be becoming less and less of my true self. what if my true self were someone who didn't like to be active in protests, didn't want to spend time volunteering, didn't like to read, and so on. would that still be appealing? I'm anticipating some will take this post the wrong way and think that i am striving to hard to be superficial and condemning those who impose this on me. this is not my intention. just how i brutally honestly feel

I'm kinda disturbed by how superficial I've become

Life Issues Facing Dreads

I've always found myself to be a very interesting, genuine person, but I just feel like that self security is being challenged lately. let me just say, that I am not blaming anyone but myself for feeling this way, i just want to express why I am feeling so. I find myself reading books not just to read them for myself, but just to say I've read them. I find myself doing adult things just to say I've done them. I've even gone to protests just to say I've been to protests. I feel horribly contradictory and superficial for some of the things I've done just for image, and just want to be able to be happy with myself how i am. I always had placed so much in having long hair and playing the guitar, like I was different and unique, and that of course gave me a lot of "unique" points throughout highschool, but reality is, huge chunk of guys have long hair, always have, and frankly just about EVERYONE plays the guitar.
updated by @lino-sanchez: 02/14/15 07:26:52AM

I've been feeling very judgemental of myself lately

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basically i have a fear of just being disregarded by people. lately i've been feeling a HUGE pressure to sound interesting and be funny when I'm in a group. like i feel i have to make a certain number of jokes, or else i'll just feel like a boring person whose just there. like, i like to be funny, and can be really funny at times, but i just hate this forced feeling i put on my self. it just makes me really nervous and anxious. but like, if i calm myself, i might just end up being silent and just give a couple chuckles and never say much. i don't know why i keep doing this...
updated by @lino-sanchez: 01/13/15 08:34:33PM

eh I'll get to dreading eventually

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seems like we've been thinking alike then haha. i think ima go neglect echolynnrain said:

Me 3...still havn't started either. In fact...lino and I are just here to get laid by dreadies, lol...just kidding. But actually my procrastination has been an organic one...an evolution...it's a state of mind that when I reach it...I'll stop brushing.

eh I'll get to dreading eventually

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simply if their a population of students with dreadlocks. or if the school is generally dread friendly. Didjeridurian said:

What makes a school "Dready?"