The Demon Drink
General Questions
I would like to throw in my thoughts about recovery groups. In my opinion, they can be extremely helpful. You don't have to turn your will over to someone elses idea of god. It's a higher power as YOU understand it. It could be a rock, a piece of clothing, a concept, the rooms meetings are held in, the meeting itself, or a particular message. I too struggled with what a higher power could be, and I got the answer (for now) from an Al-Anon book. I don't have a higher power but I do have a higher consciousness. Plus, step work, if you feel you need to do it (most in recovery do) is done at your own pace. When you feel comfortable doing it. If you struggle with a step (Step 2 in this case) talk to your sponsor, someone who has shared similar experiences, even yourself. I know a lot of althoests, Buddhists, pagans, wiccans, Native Americans, etc in recovery. A Christian view of god is not required.Now that I've gone on and on... In my opinion, if you're having to consciously try to limit yourself, set boundaries, there's a problem. You mentioned beginning to want to drink durning the day, while at work, just because, alone. That indicates a problem. It's very easy to fill in any answer on an online survey to get the end result that makes you happy. I'm not saying you did that, I'm just sayin....