My hair has crazy knotted volume and I love it! But my best friend thinks I look like crap. lol. She doesnt know my goal of this matted mess resembling dreadlocks someday. I am not ready to tell people. Its my thing. People will find out in time, but this isnt for them. I feel more beautiful everyday and I realize I look like a crazy homeless lady but I like it. I have completly let go of typical ideas of beauty. I have always been about 140lbs and I have always felt bigger than I want. I have had 2 children and look bigger now than I ever have been. But I feel great. I feel beautiful. I am changing my views of not only my hair but my entire body.