~In need of some love and support here~
Hi all: I havn't been around in awhile, alot has happned....mostly from me just being stupid... A year ago I got married to someone I barely even knew, what on earth was I thinking?
We've been separated since August (he got busted and hauled off to another state)... but this is the least of my worries...he has a serious drinking/raging problem..he would go on 3 day drinking binges...but that was the least of that problem...he was terribly controlling, angry, name calling, and some other things..but he has been demanding I just let hiim come back..I am like NO, you have to prove yourself..(he says he has changed, I see no evidence of it) in fact, he has been meaner and nastier to me ne now, from 2000 miles away than in real life. The nicest he has ever been to me was the day I visited him in jail. A totally different person that I had not seen before.
Anyway...I also discovered he has been chasing women around, going home with women he has picked up, and trying to get back with some exes and all kinds of things like this and I'm hurting from all of that, too.
Well, so I explained to him I am finally working on my dreadlocks...on Sunday, he informed me that he hates me and yesterday, he texted me saying that he doesn't want me anymore. (we are married)...why? because of dreadlocks. I also discovered he is pretty racist, (something I abhor) and from 2000 miles away has been trying to tell me what I can and cannot put on my facebook page, (while his life is out of control from alchoholism and anger issues)........just yesterday, again, I got called the n word among some other things.
Anyway....I just needed to vent and whine for awhile...I think the Universe has destined for me to be alone, for now, anyway....he didn't even remember my birthday or valentines day, or our anniversary, he's been too busy, I suppose. I just don't feel like I'm very loved, well, now I'm not, he told me he hates me.
All because of dreadlocks.