I do not know what to do ... Now that I've finally taken the plunge and started what I have been afraid of for so long.
I started my journey with neglect about 7 months ago now and so far there is not much progress. I have been told that my type of hair is the hardest to dread so I've been sleeping on a wool sweater and for the first 5 months Iwashed with bs / acv until I finally bought the Lockin Up Liquid Dreadlocks Shampoo. I wash my hair about every three days and in between washes I spray with Lockin up sea salt spray. I rarelytie up my hair and I always let it air dry after washing. I do all things according to the rules and still everything moves so slow so slow. I have a few clumsy flat tangles in the back of my head. At firstI was so happy, but now when I look at them I just feel exhausted.
The people I have around me do not understand what I do or why I do it. I have no support and encouragement. When I look in the mirror, I want to give up because it's just frizzy and ugly, I feel neither beautiful nor attractive in any way. I live far from my family and the people I know here have not at all "the dread life style."
I know someone who got hers fixed with backocombiung and permfluid 11 years ago and hers look really nice. So now I find myselfe debatingwhether not i should look up a slong and just get it fixed. I'm loosing faith.
Completely desperate, I stood before the mirror and started to do some twist and rip ones.
I do not know how I will cope with my journey without the encouragement and support, for it seems to be a long and difficult one. I so want to give up and at the same time I want to see more perogress and keep trying. I dont want to cry anymore.
What should I do?
updated by @juniper-prla: 02/14/15 03:18:44AM