What it means.
After reading through the reasons behind many beginning their dread journeys, I'd like to try to articulate my reasons for doing so. I guess it's an attempt to reaffirm my own thoughts. First, it helps that I've always found dreadlocks to be beautiful, even as a young child.
The past couple of years or so has been particularly difficult for me, mentally and spiritually. I won't go into too many boring details, but in a nutshell, being stuck in a dead end job that wears me down as a human being is killing my soul. A succession of terrible decisions, harmful vices, and self-destructive behavior has turned me into someone that I hate. There's this constant, nagging feeling of helplessness and anger that is always right underneath the surface. I'm not about anger and hate. I want/need/crave peace and balance in my life.
My passions and dreams have fallen to the wayside and I've let myself become entangled in a cycle of working to pay bills, being financially secure, staying rooted to avoid the scary prospect of not knowing what will happen in the future. I wish I had the courage to let go and to free myself. My spirit is starved for adventure and beautiful life experiences. My boyfriend and I have been planning and saving up to be able to hopefully do just that one day. Letting my hair go is a small step I'm taking toward learning to not worry so much and to rediscover myself--to stop caring so much about what I'm expected to do and do what I want to do NOW, before it's too late and I regret not having done it later. I need to rediscover myself, to learn to love and accept who I am now.
I'm sure a lot of other people have felt this way too... Okay. That's a bunch of reasons. Sorry for rambling, but it was important for me to put my thoughts into writing.