destination: a dream

i lived in italy when i was younger and every since it is the only thing that i have ever consistenly wanted ... to go back and live there.so now the chance is coming around and for the first time i'm terrified ...i can pickup and leave anywhere and never look back but this one place and the ppl i'm connected to have drilled this huge spot in my heart ... so how is it possible to suddenly have all these mixed feelings? i live my life to discover, not to fear the unknown.