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After reading through the reasons behind many beginning their dread journeys, I'd like to try to articulate my reasons for doing so. I guess it's an attempt to reaffirm my own thoughts. First, it helps that I've always found dreadlocks to be beautiful, even as a young child.
The past couple of years or so has been particularly difficult for me, mentally and spiritually. I won't go into too many boring details, but in a nutshell, being stuck in a dead end job that wears me down as a human being is killing my soul. A succession of terrible decisions, harmful vices, and self-destructive behavior has turned me into someone that I hate. There's this constant, nagging feeling of helplessness and anger that is always right underneath the surface. I'm not about anger and hate. I want/need/crave peace and balance in my life.
My passions and dreams have fallen to the wayside and I've let myself become entangled in a cycle of working to pay bills, being financially secure, staying rooted to avoid the scary prospect of not knowing what will happen in the future. I wish I had the courage to let go and to free myself. My spirit is starved for adventure and beautiful life experiences. My boyfriend and I have been planning and saving up to be able to hopefully do just that one day. Letting my hair go is a small step I'm taking toward learning to not worry so much and to rediscover myself--to stop caring so much about what I'm expected to do and do what I want to do NOW, before it's too late and I regret not having done it later. I need to rediscover myself, to learn to love and accept who I am now.
I'm sure a lot of other people have felt this way too... Okay. That's a bunch of reasons. Sorry for rambling, but it was important for me to put my thoughts into writing.
Welcome, you will get there Liz,
Hey, Allie! That's so cool that you were brave enough to do such a thing! I bet it's incredibly liberating. I'm trying to work my way up to it. Thank you for the wishes and I will definitely keep that in mind! Thank you.
Welcome Liz!I will try to not ramble on myself with this...Dive in. Do what terrifies you, feed your spirit. I was in the cycle to work to pay bills and living paycheck to paycheck, the job I was in was mentally straining, I became physically ill. Give up that what cages you. I don't want to say taking baby steps is a bad thing, but it is too easy to cling to false comforts this way and stay trapped.About 9 months ago I quit the 2 dead end jobs, hit the road and have been living rent free.
I am wishing you all the best on your journey, your path is your own but if you ever want an ear to listen to rambles I am happy to as I so hear what you are saying within this post.
Blessings and Love.
That sounds like it would be amazing, SE!
Thank you for the positivity, Tim. I hope you are right.
Hey Snags. Sorry to hear you've been through so much. It's awesome that you started your own website. I wish you success. You are right. There is no one to blame, but me.
Peace and blessings. You might be surprised by the power of dreading your hair. You will have good times ahead. Dreads are more than just knotted hair. Just wait and see, if you want change, it will come. I wish you true peace and happiness.
leave a few weeks to month early go to the gathering in montana from there wander till u find your land to buuild on
Hey SE. I appreciate what you're saying and agree, but we do have a one year lease on our apartment and 3 dogs to take care of too. So we're just going to bide our time and save til our lease is up in July. Nope, I don't really like staying in hotels. There's no point. We were thinking of road trip/camping/hiking kind of adventure. We'd like to have our own piece of land one day to try to build a sandbag home on and be somewhat self-sustaining. I've been working on my bad habits and have made a lot of progress. Haha, well yeah it would be terrible if he left.
But yeah, I'm trying to work on myself. It's been difficult, but I'm getting there. You're right. The future isn't guaranteed. That's why I'd like to get the ball rolling soon. I'm still hopeful that we'll be able to see some of our dreams come to fruition. Just need to make sure things are in order before we set sail.
have you ended the self destructive behavior abandoned the negative vices?
i assume that some of these vixces and behaviors come with a pricetag?
so your sving up for a futeure happiness
while spending money to self medicte away the pains of todaty ofcourse the side effects of these self medications are depressions pains sicknesses and a growing need for stronger medications with deeper pains
and..higher prio]icetags
but..someday you will rise aboveand be free?
while letting yourself slip iin deeper and deeprr?
todays the day..you dont gotta save if u dont gotta spend
just be
be free
what exactly are you savuing to do?
travel? adventure?
wheres the adventure in flying place to place justto stay in a hotel? diferent drapes and color rugs make the hi[oliday in more exciting then the ramada ?
the adventures worth having dont cost a cent you dont need to save you just ne4d to do
live the life you want today not tomorow
think about it
the average person works 9-5 to pay for a shoebox size apartment from 16 or 18 ..till 65 always with the idea of having the life they want when they retire
so along comes 65 they take 1 trip rent an rv stay in 5 star hotels..and blow their whole retirement fund in just 2 months
so they sell the rv, move into a retirement home, get on social security the "assisted living" center takes the entire ss check and gives them 10 dollars a month back to buy a pack of cigs and they sit around and wait to die
ive never been worried biut the future ill deal with that when it gets here but i love livin my life here and now having adventure after adventure after adventure if i do nothing at all in my old age at least ill have those memories to live within while staring at the tv all day
srry if i rambled just hate to see ya struggling for a future thats not guaranteed
do u know if all your planning will ever work out? u can save and save and yoir boyfreind decide to leave and take it akll
u can plan and plan then the day u finaly set that plan in motion get hit by a bus
no futures guaranteed hell your not guaranteed to make it through the day..so live each day like its yoir last chance to have that adventure u feel you need so badly
get out there and live