Bout time I said a little about why I'm here : )
Right so, my reason's for growing dreads are this;
So basically i'vealways had this obsession with my hair being neat and tidy, I'd always fuss over it, straighten it, have it cut weekly etc. However i would always be worried that it looked a mess!
Now, I am buddhist and with such recognised that my missery (never being happy with my hair) came from my desire (to look good). The other huge point here is that clearly I have a problem with ego,.which I also feel as part of my religious and spiritual growth needs to be eradicated.
So, litteraly 10 years ago I first thought I should grow dreads, just let go of trying to control my appearance, let go of desire and let go of ego. Great : ) ...as I said that was 10 years ago, and for 10 years I tried to grow my hair, now to go from weekly hair cuts to letting it grow for 6 months is a huge culture shock on it's own, and, as soon as my hair got to that (messy) stage I gave in! I went to the hairdressers, had it cut short and styled....
Then I would feel so depressed,so vain and so weak.
I would start again : ) As Buddhism sais, let go of regret, there is no past, only now, relax and start again : ) .....
6 months later, same again....
and so on and so forth, from the age of about 18 to the age of 27,
Now the last time I cut my hair was June 2011 and by Feb 2012 I backcombed my hair and left it to Dread, since that day I have only used my own home-made shampoo and tried to rejoice in the natural, organic messiness : )
And I have, I have enjoyed the process so far, there have though been so many days such as today (hence my writing this post) that I have just wanted to take them out! Wanted to get them out of my hair and go back to short, sharp, stylish hair!....But I haven't! And shortly after have been so greatfyull that I haven't given up and thrown away 1 and a half years of achievement (which is how is what I see my baby dreads as) this journey, as well as (gradually) teaching me ego-loss is also teaching me patience with my self and the temporairy nature of the mind (2 important lessons I may not have found anywhere else).
Today was one of 'those' day's where I just wanted rid of them and to return to my old 'fashionably imaged' self, but just in writing this has reminded me of why i'm doing this, and of course I wouldn't be writing this if this site wasn't here. So thankyou SE for dreadlockssite,Thankyou for the knowledge and advice offered in dreaducation and forums (aswell as the chat window. Thanks also be to the community of enlightened individuals who offer support and advice, and make me strong
updated by @jonathan Peers: 01/13/15 09:40:37PM