When I Was Young
When I was a little girl in this big world I didn't believe everything my parents or other grown-ups told me.
My mom told me I had the type of hair that just doesn't grow. And praised my brother for his thick coarse hair and how much faster his hair grew than mine and how much longer his hair was as compared to mine.
But then I questioned her about her assumptions. How could she say such things when every time she would comb my hair yanking at it I would see tons of hair in the comb. To question her would be considered talking back and that just was not allowed in our household. She was right and that was the end of the discussion.
I observed a lot of contradictions as a child. I didn't talk much so I was always considered the shy girl. I just noticed that many people especially adults would say one thing and then do the other. I knew even at a young age that there is so much more than meets the eye going on.
Unfortunately I didn't have anyone at the time to talk with about these observations. I just wrote about this kind of stuff in my journals because I knew in my mind that noone I knew would be interested,or would think that I was crazy.
I saw each year bring about more and more contradictions but trying to be put across in a much more sophisticated way. You can't polish a turd and tell me things aren't as they seem!
My point of this blog is that I like to judge for myself and not take someone's word for how reality is or for how my reality is suppose to be. A lot of the women in my family are obese and one has diabetes but it doesn't mean that I am doomed to live that same fate just because I was born into this family. I think it is lifestyle choices. These lifestyle choices have an energy surrounding it that I can resonate with or decide not to.
It is a hard concept for some to see but it is my observation only.