By Sunshine, 2011-10-03
I had been considering dreads for a long time before I finally made the decision to just do it. It was very different, being able to make this decision for myself. My entire life, decisions were always being made for me. I wasn't even allowed to choose my own wardrobe as many children were. I grew up in a very strict family, where "children are to be seen and not heard" was THE rule. I did as I was told and never questioned it. I was taught not to question authority, for authority was always correct. Which, i can clearly see now, is not the case at all. When i decided to start growing dreads it was my very own choice. That was only two weeks ago and I am already seeing a vast improvement in not only my dreadlocks, but my ability to make decisions for myself. I heard people say that dreadlocks were life changing and that I'd never be the same, yada yada yada... but I guess I didn't really believe it. I knew I wouldn't know for sure unless I tried it.
I was beginning to lose hope in myself and my future. I am twenty years old and have nothing to show for it. I had so many plans for myself, to graduate college and be somebody, to change the world. My college plan fell through and I really started to believe that I had lost my chances at being somebody and changing the world. I was becoming more and more of the robot everyone claimed I was. Who am I?
Why am I here? Where will life take me? Questions I would ask myself every night before I fell asleep.
So, here we are, two weeks in and my mind is blown. I can already see that I am not the same person as I was two weeks ago, I can't even remember myself two weeks ago. This only makes me that much more excited to see what the next few years have in store for me. I have regained my hope for myself and for my future. I am making my own decisions and I am loving the person I am becoming. Dreadlocks did indeed change the person I was into the person I am now and I couldn't be more happier.
By Sunshine, 2011-10-12
I woke up this morning from a dream Ive had once before. I was running from a tornado, about five tornados actually, and I had this little boy with me. I am not sure where the little boy came from but i knew I had to keep him safe.
My eyes slammed open at 5:36 am and I could not fall back asleep so i decided to go for a run. It was nice and chilled this morning and the moon was full so it was a very pleasant run. It gave me time to think about alot that has been on my mind. Mostly this project I am trying to start. A good friend of mine is helping me set up a website (because i know nothing about starting a website) so that I can start selling my crochet and knitted items. Let me start at the beginning...
I have always wanted to do something to "change" the world. I knew from the time i could understand that this world wasn't a whole. I'm not big into politics, although im sure i SHOULD pay attention since i am a voter, but i know that as one earth, WE have 7 continents, 196 countries on our ONE earth. I don't know about all of you, but something in me believes we should all be ONE. That we shouldn't be worrying about all these petty little "laws" each of our countries have and that we should cut this war crap out. I know alot of it has to do with RELIGON. I personally, don't have a clue what I believe in, but I find it just crazy that we would WASTE our time here on earth fighting over something NONE of us knows for sure. I might be crazy for thinking this, but so be it.
Anyway! this brings me back to my project I am working on. I want to sell my items that I am making and take the proceeds and give them. Not just to another organization, but to the people. I want to make it personal. I want to give a family christmas! I want to give a lost puppy a home. I want to feed as many people as I can. I want to buy mosquito nets for thousands of people who need them. I want to build wells for others who need them. I want to change the world. and i can't change the world by sitting back and watching it fall apart because of something that none of us can help. we CAN help here and now, and I want to do so.
So i guess Ill see where this road takes me. hopefully to help thousands of people and spread love and peace. that is all I am in it for. I want to make someone smile.