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I'm sick and tired of it.
My whole life I always had a best friend, a person I could go to, a person I hung out with almost every day, someone I could fart on and we'd hit each other and it would be okay :PI haven't had that for about a year now and it's finally getting to me. I've literally had to up the dosage of my antidepressants because I just don't hang out with anyone. And it's not even that I don't try because god knows I do.I just want to go back to that. Idk.
u go6t me tho the farting on is lil..odd ..but u got me
Woah....antidepressants....maybe you should pick up guitar, or go to a activity or something where you can meet new people. Join like some classes or something. Go to a party or a Rave O__ODo something. For me I've always met people from school or from just walking around and saying "Hi" to strangers.
exactly! x
I understand that suicide is bad and that life is hard. I've come to term with these things. I also understand that anti-depressants do not fix the problem but ultimately make the problem worse. I'm not dumb, I think about this all the time. This is why I absolutely refused to take the pills until my grandmother threatened to send me to rehab. I wasn't going to take that without a fight but I ended up taking them and becoming a bit dependent on the things. I hate it, with everything in me, I HATE it. Life IS beautiful. I know that too. Life can bring you the most wonderful joys without any explanation and that's what makes it so damn beautiful. I'm really not an idiot. I would never kill myself. I've tried, many times. But soon after realized that it would be the most selfish thing I could ever do and I'm not that kind of person. Unlike a lot of people in this world, I actually care about people's feelings. I'm not heartless which is why I'm still alive today. I knew that I had things to live for and when I fell in love I knew there was no way I could go ahead with this. So I got rid of that life I lived with the help of my medicine. I'm now staying away from those damned pills and trying to live my life the way it was intended. However, knowing that I can easily get a refill is just comforting. I'm not at the point that I can just trash the prescription and be happy. But I will be, soon enough. Life is great right now. Not perfect, but great. I'm living it the way I want do without anyone's opinion standing in my way & I think that's the healthiest thing I could ever do for my depression. In a matter of about four years, I've learned more than the average person would in 20 years. I'm absolutely blessed to be here, happy & healthy and there's nothing more I could ask for.
haha right on steaze,
i am no stranger to depression, i was diagnosed with it a the age of 8! (school wernt no fun for me)
but you must belive me when i say anti depressants are not healthy there a short term fix they can cause you much suffering if you continue to use them for years opon years opon years.
a much better way to deal with depression (in my opinion this is) is to come to terms with whats makeing you feel sad. you must accept that life is not easy, it is in fact rather hard. but you mustent dwell on this fact because life is also beautiful! it's weird and wonderful! and we're all unique, just like each other! theres so much to live for and so much to die for!
i have too thorght of suicide, but i ovbs only thorght of it. i came to the belive that death is a good thing, BUT to kill yourself is to give up on life and if you were to do that it would not bare well for... everything
(erm by this i mean... i belive in reincarnation to a point, and i belive quite a few buddhist teachings too, so when i say its bad for everything i mainly mean for what you leave behind, your parents would cry at the very least, you by killing yourself would cause suffering to your friends and family, if you want to kill yourself it is surly to run away from the suffering of life, but you'll cause suffering! so you'll be reincarnated in to a life of....i guess suffering, this is what i thorght of suicide anyway, so i decided to be good to do good to avoid any and all things i percive as "bad" or "wrong" dont engage in arguments dont listen to people when they talk badly about someone be your own roll model!! )
this is turning in to me ranting on about things that might not be helpful....so i'll stop now. x
life is hard, but it is also wonderful and full of laughter.
The problem with anti-depressants is that that neutralize depression. What you need are some pro-expansions. Some happy happy joy joy things. I don't know if those are found in pills?
A wise man once said, "The thought of suicide is a great comfort; it helps one through many a dreadful night." I truly don't think life is worth living until we thought about ending it. I in fact found something I had to live for, a found a fire. A beautiful feeling it is to carry a torch out of darkness.
This is a great time for you. Cherish it as it occurs. You are going through something many of us wait and want to come back around, a life lesson. I am actually jealous of you.
Have you tried doing something artistic. Maybe painting. I have found painting or doing something creative with my hands can help me work through things in my life. I do many different things. Sometimes painting. Sometimes making dolls. Or using clay to make sculptures. My heart goes out to you!
Warm Regards,
Trina
I'm afraid to stop taking my anti-depressants though. Like, just the thought of it scares me. I've been suffering with suicidal depression for about 3-4 years and when I started taking the medicine, I felt better. It's like a god to me in a weird sense. I'm afraid to leave it...
my friend have you ever heard the expression "life is suffering"? or "life is not easy"?
to take anti depressants (in my opinion) is like the war on terrorism it's like war on war it's a never ending circle anti depressants fight depresstion, but there a harmful placebo. you can only fight depresstion by changing the way you look at life, im not saying you sould be over optimistic that wouldnt help ether in the long run. trust me you'll be fine and you'll go through much worse times then this and you'll still be fine at the end of it.
true friends dont come and go true friends stay with you for life, i've got old friends who ive been very close to in the past but now we hardly will look each other in the eyes, it's life mate... confusing and weird yet wonderfull too
I realize how pathetic this whole thing sounds but it's true. & yes, I do smoke the ganja ;P from time to time. & I loooove books and I'll have to go out and buy the one you're talking about.. & I HATE sports. I'm not any good at 'em. They're just not for me. So, I guess I'm still stuck in this little rut.