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It's been a strange week.My best friend from school has stopped talking to me over a throw away comment referencing an earlier facebook status from his ex-wife. Sounds confusing...? It is!Let me take you back to the turn of the century... (that sounds ages ago... but was only 10 years!)Some of you may know this already, but I went to school in Germany for 4 years, due to my dad being in the air force. As I was starting my fourth year there, I realised I was pretty much on my own. The friends I made in the 3 years previous had all moved back to the UK or left school. So essentially, I had to start networking again!I made friends with a group of guys I sort of knew-ish, and it was about this time I fell in love.I would have gladly given the world to this girl, and I still would. Although we've drifted apart and not seen or spoken in years, she is the only person I will ever truly love.Anyway, I digress...One of this group of friends (Matt) went on to become my best friend. We started a band together, and were pretty much inseperable.Matt was going out with a girl called Ana. throughout my last year at school Matt and Ana were on/off all the time, thanks to a guy called Lee.Lee was a twat! A highly strung ball of pur emotion. He stole Ana away from Matt, and Matt took it badly. And he and Lee didn't ever get on.Anyway, the girl I fell in love with was Zoe. She never loved me back of course, but I did everything I could to make her happy. I would have done anything to see her smile. It reminded me of a pinball machine when you win a bonus game, lighting up her face in a crecendo of beauty.Me and Zoe never got together, no matter how much i wanted it!So, I left Germany and we all kept in touch for a while. Matt and Ana split up properly, and Lee moved away as well.Anyway a few months later I get a call from Matt, and he tells me that he and Zoe have got together. Obviously this completely crushed me, but as long as Zoe was happy, I didn't let on. Weeks, Months and Years past and we all lost contact. That was until the dawn of Facebook.When I first used facebook, I found Matt and Zoe, and found out that they got married and were still in Germany doing this and that. I messaged them but recieved no reply. So I let it go.Anyway a few weeks ago Zoe reverted to using her maiden name, and I found out that they split. The next thing I know Zoe is on Facebook calling Matt a coward and liar and any name under the sun!The a few hours later I read this:"Apparently the best way to tell your wife you're in a new relationship is to put it on Facebook to humiliate them in front of their family and friends."Obviously, me being concerned, I commented on this by saying: "So not only a liar and coward, but also a rotter a scoudrel and a cad! If you need a chat you know where I am."Because of this comment, Matt has now blocked me. That to me is an admision of him being a bounder and a cad. At this very point in time, I couldn't care less that he blocked me. What I do care about is how he betrayed Zoe. I now no longer consider him a friend and have no time for him at all.The message I want to send to Zoe is this:"Although you may not be having a great time right now, I want you to know that my love for you is as strong as the love of Odesyus for Penelope. I know we can never be together as you don't feel the same about me. I want you to know that although life seems bad now, you WILL find happiness. And I will make it my ongoing quest to make sure of that. I just wanted to let you know that there is someone who will always love and care for you. You own my heart, and whenever you need someone, your call is all i need to be at your side. I will fight, kill and die for you if you give the word, and anyone who crosses you will be damned at my hands. You are the one shining light in my life, and I give my word that your light will not be extinguished."I chickened out and didn't send it!I know it sounds weird that I never got over a girl i never went out with at school, but I think this could have something to do with why I have no luck with the ladies now. Everyone I meet I compare to Zoe. And they never meassure up.Maybe I need to let go.But how...?There's only one way to find out...