I give up...
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Thanks all. It really is a process.I find that I am still at war with myself... but that, I suppose, is the dichotomous nature of mankind. We are spiritual beings, yet we are carnal in our thought process.
I give up.
I started this journey, some 5 months ago initially because all of my friends, my coworkers, my teammates thought that I should cut my hair.
I thought of all of the people occupying Wall Street and Washington DC and decided that I would rebel in my own way. I would rebel against all of the social constructs that constrain me today. I would rebel against corporate greed and fiscal irresponsibility, I would rebel against the politicians that claim to represent me but only meet with big businesses. I would rebel against the line of thought that says you have to cut, or brush, or comb your hair. Since Im not able to walk away from my livelihood and occupy the streets of New York or DC and protest then I would let my hair sit atop of my head IN protest.
So I had someone section out my hair, and I went and bought gels, and clips, and rubber bands and a hair net so that I could let my hair dread up in protest and well, I guess I had the thought that I needed to look good while doing it..
Something resonated deep within me. Something unsettling about this. My friends and colleagues liked my new do now (I no longer sported a tangled mess of curles) and no longer thought that I looked crazy. Why didnt this sit right with me? My hair rebelled against this process and I was determined to win this battle of wills. So I would palm roll, root rub, two strand twist, and do whatever it took to get my hair to look like an good acceptable dreadlo.
And then I figured it out it hit me profoundly! What I thought that I was standing against I was only feeding into.
I believe in freedom, I live for it, I am an advocate for it, and for the oppressed and yet I was trying to make my hair conform to an image presented to me by the media. An acceptable dread.
So I give up! My dreads arent about a look. My hair isnt a fashion statement. My hair is about a revolution, at least in my own life.
They are about freedom. They are about living, moving and being as free as I desire to be. why would I want to make them conform to an image that is completely unnatural.
So, as I free my mind, I free my soul, I free my hair, I give up control (as in controlling it).. and with this in mind I can say with a great sigh of relief, I give up. And if you are on this journey Iencourage you to do the same.