HELP! :( could use a little guidance from anyone who is generally spiritual.
Hugs to you, Dear One. Relationships can be tricky, for sure. Growth often happens during our hardest times, as I'm sure you already know. If you can get to a point where you can be okay with your partner being sad, that would be healthy for you. Why such a need for him to be happy? It is obviously more pleasant in the home when there is emotional harmony, but the truth is that we are all still very, very human - part of which is learning to rise above ego, experience our emotions and just let them go, etc.
I come from an extremely conservative religious background (think headcovering, practically Amish) and now simply embrace spirituality over any form of religion. This works best for me, and has allowed me to release many former hang-ups I had revolving around judgment, expectations, fears, etc. If you are interested in my journey, I write a spiritual blog at:
Glad you felt free to share your concerns on this very cool website. Many blessings to you on your continued journey!