Feeling a bit down..just ranting
Hey everyone. Basically posting in this forum because, today, I am in a deep valley. My hair is dreading fast than I can separate it, causing a perma mat in the back. I spend about 3 hours cumulative time separating each day..and these guys are nearing 3 weeks young.
My 3 yr old daughter has told me about how my hair is ratty and it needs to be brushed. (My fault as I've always made sure to keep her hair neat and tidy in a braid usually). Her grandmother told me I look like I belong in a psych ward... And honestly, feel like I do. Am I crazy for thinking I can get past this messy young phase with my head high and not worry about my hair so much? I'm so afraid of having a massive congo in the back, with the little dreadies poking out that I try so hard to separate often, but always having it mat back up, sometimes worse than it was before.
I have hair down below my waist, undreaded.. In these few weeks the back has already shrunk above my shoulders in some spots... The front not so much, but the hair is dreading and much easier to keep from being buddies. Has anyone else had blues and woes in these early stages? I know in my being I am not alone in my doubts about my newly forming locs... I just need to be more patient with myself and my hair.
Writing this all out makes me feel better. I realize the lessons being learnt and yet to be learned in this journey...and I am grateful.
updated by @grey0wl: 03/09/18 08:59:21PM