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I've recently put my profile back up. I always leave embarrased because I've brushed my dreads out again. I keep brushing my dreads out because they get very messy in the 3rd month and I worry what people think of me when I go out in public. I have a tattoo on my throat. You would think this would be something I was past by now. Maybe in some areas of my life... Or maybe I only manage to find acceptance in those permanent areas because I no longer have a choice. Maybe I'm seeking acceptance in all the wrong places. Maybe I wouldn't seek so much acceptance if I had truly accepted myself. My hair is now green because I just couldn't leave well enough alone. A part of me wants to dye it another normal color to hide my mistake. A knowing part says to leave it. Let it be a reminder. Let it be your challenge of acceptance. I'm struggling... I've started letting it knot again as well. I hope I can leave it. I hope I can look back a year from now, see those green ends, love them, and be thankful for them. I hope I can say thank you for teaching me to let go. I guess we will see. I hope, if nothing else, I have the courage to stick around no matter what happens. You are all such wonderful, loving, and accepting people. I always feel so blessed to be among you. Thank you all for being here. <3
I've recently put my profile back up. I always leave embarrased because I've brushed my dreads out again. I keep brushing my dreads out because they get very messy in the 3rd month and I worry what people think of me when I go out in public. I have a tattoo on my throat. You would think this would be something I was past by now. Maybe in some areas of my life... Or maybe I only manage to find acceptance in those permanent areas because I no longer have a choice. Maybe I'm seeking acceptance in all the wrong places. Maybe I wouldn't seek so much acceptance if I had truly accepted myself. My hair is now green because I just couldn't leave well enough alone. A part of me wants to dye it another normal color to hide my mistake. A knowing part says to leave it. Let it be a reminder. Let it be your challenge of acceptance. I'm struggling... I've started letting it knot again as well. I hope I can leave it. I hope I can look back a year from now, see those green ends, love them, and be thankful for them. I hope I can say thank you for teaching me to let go. I guess we will see. I hope, if nothing else, I have the courage to stick around no matter what happens. You are all such wonderful, loving, and accepting people. I always feel so blessed to be among you. Thank you all for being here. <3