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dreadlocks changing more than your hair

Nicholas janousek
@nicholas-janousek
5 years ago
50 posts

Yeah I know what you mean Ever since i started i look at pic of me before and i almost dont recognize myself I've gotten used and have grown to love how it looks and it feels this is i how i should look

Whip Thehooper said:

They made me feel sexier. Which is funny, because I know a lot of people in the world would have said I was way sexier before with my sleek black hair that went all the way down to my butt. But the fact of the matter is, I didn't feel like "me" with that hair... never really did. That's why I wore it up in a messy bun for years.

Dreads made me, ME. I feel like ME now. My outsides match who I am on the inside. And while some might disagree that my hair is sexier now, the confident vibe I send out now definitely is noticeable.


updated by @nicholas-janousek: 07/23/15 07:01:16PM
Nikki Whiskgirl Lindsey
@nikki-whiskgirl-lindsey
5 years ago
14 posts

ah my 2 week dreads have already brought out a change in me. i half back combed dreads and half neglect, some have beads, some have ribbons, some are big and some are small, they are very unordered and chaotic, which seems to accurately reflect the inner me. i am bipolar and have hidden this as much as i can for the past 20 years, my dreads have made me not care about other people knowing now, they are there on display for the world to see and i kinda feel everyone that looks at them can see the real me....they have made me feel so much more confident and even beautiful. my dreads have and will continue to change me and my life for the better :)

Blair
@blair
5 years ago
12 posts

I've changed so much in the past week since I started my dreads. For as long as I can remember I was never happy with my hair. I hated it short, I hated it long, I hated it when it was down, I hated it when it was up. I was almost constantly brushing it because it was always getting tangled up. I spent 20 minutes every morning trying to flat iron it and fill it with waxy products so it would stay flat. When I finally started my dreading process it was the most freeing thing I've ever done. I never realized I could love this 'nappy mess' on my head as much as I do. After the first time I washed them with the bs deep cleanse my hair felt amazing. I decided that if my hair felt that good without chemicals, sulfates, and perfumes being put into it, then my body would feel great too. I went out and bought organic body wash, lotion, and deodorant. Im also starting to eat better, not just for the weight loss, but because it makes me feel so good. I'm more energetic, and in better moods.

It also made me realize that I didnt need to take any crap from my controlling boyfriend. He hated that I finally stood up for myself and I did something he told me not to do. Sad right? Our relationship will be ending soon, and I'm happy to say I'm not sad about it at all.

So you could say my dreads changed almost everything about me for the better. I feel almost enlightened. Sorry for such a long response. Haha. :)

Angel Frye
@angel-frye
5 years ago
409 posts

Blair: "It also made me realize that I didnt need to take any crap from my controlling boyfriend. He hated that I finally stood up for myself and I did something he told me not to do. Sad right? Our relationship will be ending soon, and I'm happy to say I'm not sad about it at all."

You go, girl! You don't need anyone else controlling you; you're capable of controlling yourself. My husband and I have really had it out a few times over my hair, too. He's settled down a great deal but yeah, I can see relationships ending because of hair. Yes, it is sad.

I read something interesting in an old psychotherapy book last week, I just grabbed it off the library shelf and started reading it so I don't remember the name of it but it was quite enlightening. It described controlling behavior as the controller seeing the person they are trying to control as 'acting out against their actual selves. Except in this case the actual person isn't who the controller really is.' The controller builds up this ideal image in their mind of who they think you are and what you should be and when you disagree with anything at all they act as though you don't know yourself, thus making you insecure!

But we DO know ourselves. WE live in our own skins, they do not. So if someone you love doesn't seem to listen to you and always thinks they know what is best for you and you don't know anything-- that's what's going on. You're an idealized doll in their mind and when you 'act out' they feel like they're trying to protect you. But really all they're doing is protecting the image THEY have of you in their mind because that's what they need you to be, for THEIR sake, not yours. When they try to dictate your every move and mood then you know they're thinking of the doll-like image in their mind- not YOU. They're not talking to YOU anymore, they're talking to the doll.

Dreadlocks are definitely freeing in this regard because you're letting your outside show what's on the inside. Nobody is perfectly smooth and frizz-free on the inside; we're all chaotic creatures of whim and desire.

Blair
@blair
5 years ago
12 posts
That's eactly what he does. When I first brought uop getting dreads he said "you'll get tired of them and hate them. Trust me I know you better than you do. I was right about you piercing and your ears (I stretched them)" and hell say mean things like "I miss your old body, you should start working out". When I try to break up with him he guilts me. Into staying with him by threatning to kill himself. So hopefully this will be the thing that ends us. Its sad that he's so superficial, I never thought someone could be that mean. And that book sounds like it would be interesting, ill try to find something like that at the library. I love psychilogy. :)
Angel Frye
@angel-frye
5 years ago
409 posts

Emotional vampirism. That's what it is. The condition, not the book unfortunately. I've looked and looked on Amazon but I can't find it. It's an older book. But there's lots of books written about this very subject. "Pulling Your Own Strings" is a good one. And narcissists truly are that superficial. A caring person would try to get you to workout for your health, not because they just want your old body back. A narcissist will leave you(or make you feels so bad you want to die) when they get tired of your old body. Or they'll just cheat on you with a better looking woman, thus making you feel MORE like a piece of crap thrown to the side. There is no winning with a narcissist.

I've had an emotional vampire in my life; a real narcissist who yup, threatened to kill themselves if I left them. All I could do was leave. I didn't have the heart to say, "Well, you better start hacking at the vein with a butterknife now, baby, because I'm leaving in 3... 2....1..." Although I really really wanted to. Mean, I know. But they put me through hell. After all the hell you really just want to get away. And getting away is really the only safe option. You want to live your life, not theirs.

And Blair, if he really knows you better than you know yourself then isn't he pretty much dating himself? That's kinda lame. Like having a predictable conversation with yourself. What's the point? Alright. And what does HE get out of it? Ahhhh... someone to control. So he gets what he wants. What do you get out of the relationship?

The light shines in the dark and life suddenly becomes good again.

Blair
@blair
5 years ago
12 posts
I'm in need of a trip to the library, so ill look for it. Sounds reaally interesting. And he's always accusing me of cheating, he does it so much I'm starting to think he's the one who's cheating. I don't have any proof though. I don't want him in my life at all, but he's the father of my 2 boys, so I'm stuck. He also threatens to take the boys to florida so I'll never see them if we break up. I'm living with my mom with no job (I'm looking for one of course), and I'm not sure how all the custody stuff works out. In a perfect world he'd sign his rights over and disappear. But I know I can't have my way with that one. Haha.
Angel Frye
@angel-frye
5 years ago
409 posts

Yikes. Yes, that is unfortunately one emotional vampire you will be stuck dealing with for the rest of your life. BUT-- it doesn't have to be all horrible. The best advice I've heard(which I have used) was about how to live in proximity with a narcissistic emotional vampire who thrives on discord and running your life: become boring and then make your retreat. That's about the only thing that wont set them off. They pick at the flamboyant because they have such strong opinions about EVERYthing. Because, you know, everything that is their way is right while everyone else is wrong for thinking the way they do. Narcissists can't accept other people's opinions.

If he's constantly accusing you of cheating then he may not necessarily be DOING it but he certainly is thinking about 'cheating' as a major topic an awful lot, isn't he? That indicates paranoia, fear, grasping/attachment issues, and of course the obvious control freak tendencies. He's a bully, flat out. He wants to make you so scared that you can't think, let alone think about what you want.

Getting independent wont be easy but it's the only way you'll be able to get the toothy vampire off your back. The kids being around that behavior certainly isn't healthy, either, especially if they're boys. You don't want him as their manly role model thinking they can manipulate and control women so easily with tears, yelling, and threats.

Just don't laugh at him. That's pretty much the worst thing you can do to an emotional vampire. If you laugh at his ridiculousness it could make him psychotic. After you can identify exactly HOW he manipulates people after a while it does become funny to watch. Act bored. Just don't laugh. They really do think they're gods and that they have everyone's best interest at heart.

After your separated and safe it'd be amusing to have a socratic argument with him about his childish past behavior. Watch the indignant teeth come out in fury. It's hilarious. But only if you're safe.

Blair
@blair
5 years ago
12 posts

How exactly would I be boring? And hes not a good role model for the boys, which is another reason I want him gone. He's kind of mean to them, he calls our younger son fat all the time, and he completely ignores our older son. As soon as he walks in the door he's totally focused on me. Or, he'll yell at our 2 year old about having a bink. And when I say something to him about shouting over something stupid he jumps on how I'm a bad parent because I don't discipline the boys (I do gentle discipline, I don't spank them.) My mom is noticing his crap too. A couple months ago she discreetly left a phamphlet on emotional abuse in one of my books. There was one time I called him out on it, and showed him the phamphlet and he flipped out. I've never seen him go crazy like that, I was actually kind of scared.

And sorry if I keep going on, I don't really talk to people much about this, they usually go on about how I'm stupid for getting back with him. Lol.

Angel Frye
@angel-frye
5 years ago
409 posts

This is really rough with the kids in the middle.That's good that your family has noticed all this. If you need their support then you know you'll have good people to rely on for character witnesses in court for his behavior.

The kids are in a dangerous spot and able to be hurt so much more easily by all this. You're an adult. You can hop in a car and take off. They can't. Furthermore, if you tried taking off with them you'll have judges and lawyers up your ass so fast you'll think you were in a hospital gown. Look up something called UNCRC or the United Nations Conventions for the Rights of the Child. Scary shit. The United States is starting to use International Law to sneak this stuff into the state constitutions. Just something to think about. I'd start making a plan to get out now. Under UNCRC laws the state can take away your children for so much as fighting in front of them or children disagreeing with parents. Please, don't laugh or roll your eyes until you read more about this monstrosity. The USA is the ONLY country so far not to sign UNCRC into legality.

My longwinded point is that if you want to keep your kids then you're going to have to get a plan together. Custody will be a nightmare, naturally. And people are often going to call you stupid for getting back together with him but you know what? If life was easy then it wouldn't be worth living. We don't arrive on this Earth with all the answers in our hearts and souls and we have to learn by experience. Anyone calls you stupid for making a mistake then just remind them of that-- what, they've never made mistakes before? They're so perfect?

About acting boring, here's how I survived the relationship: I kept a mantra that I said to myself when I woke and any time during the day before I opened my mouth. It sounds horribly degrading but it literally puts you in your place for the moment to stay in the non-intrusive mindset of where he wants you to be. By non-intrusive I mean "brainless." You're not intruding on his doll-vision of you therefore he's somewhat happier. If you intrude on his doll-vision then you're going to set him off. Be placating. You wont have to do this forever.

The mantra I kept saying to myself was, "I don't live here anymore. My opinion doesn't matter." Over and over and over and over again.

First, saying to myself that I don't live here anymore reminded me of my goal. Second, my opinion truly didn't matter to him so what the hell was the point of saying anything anyway? I just learned to let it all go over my head and agree with whatever he said unless it was accusing me of something I didn't do. Then if he did accuse me of something I'd ask him "'I didn't do it but why do you think I did it?" Let HIM rationalize the accusation.

The more he makes stupid hollow arguments about he swears you did something which you know you didn't the more clearly you'll see that you need to gather the energy to make a concrete plan on a way to get out.

Be boring. Don't express opinions. Use that brain-energy instead to make a plan to get out. And if during this process of not expressing opinions he gets abusive with your children then you have legally gained a way out. Take the kids and go file a police report. He stepped over the line.

Can we turn this over to a personal conversation format now and let the thread get back to the original topic? I'd like to continue the conversation but I think it'll get even more lengthy and I don't want to offtrack the thread too much longer. People will get unnerved.

Dreadlocks changing more than your hair. Hmmm.. I started sewing dresses. And actually wearing them. *gasp* I've never been such a girlie girl in my life. Dreadlocks have made me more easy going overall but I don't put up with anyone's shit. I'd rather walk out of the room than continue listening to someone be bashed or bashing another person. I used to put up with it now I refuse to tolerate it at all. People can have their opinions but geez, why do they still insist on forcing their beliefs on others?

 
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