So hello everyone
I've been here for some weeks now, but since I tend to do everything backward (cause I'm a bit of a lunatic), I didn't even introduce myself properly. So here we go.
I live in the Province of Quebec, Canada and I'm a professional astrologist, herbalist and lithotherapist. It's been 6 weeks today since I started to grow natural dreads and I'm enjoying this journey so much. This was definitely one of the best decisions I ever made.
I've always been attracted to dreadlocks and knew I would do it someday, but I never felt it was a good time for it. I suffered alot in my young time, being abused by my pedophile uncle, then constantly humiliated at school because of my family spiritual beliefs. I grew up in a small town in the middle of the woods, and we were so different from other people there. Life was pretty harsh, but I had to endure it, no matter what. And I came to suffer from really severe anxiety and depression.
I did like it was nothing, trying to "be normal" and all. Moving, becoming atheist, going to school, working... and not listening to my true self. I should have see it coming. 3 years ago, I began to have extremely bad panic attacks for "no reason". Then I became agoraphobic and was totally unable to go out of my appartment. Because of a genetic condition, I'm unable to metabolize alot of chemicals, including antidepressants. So psychiatrists, psychologists and doctors told me I was a lost cause. And for some time, I believed them.
But I don't anymore. I know I was just suffering from the past I didn't want to see. I know I wasn't being my true self, being afraid that people would humiliate me again. I know I was not doing what I was supposed to do, not believing what I truly believe. So I shaved my head to get rid of my past, learned about Amma massage, astrology and herbalism, re-connected with my fears, sadness and anger, learned to accept them. Then I let my hair grow again and some time ago, I felt like I had mostly overcome my suffering. I had forgiven my uncle too. And I was ready to live an adventurous life full of love and compassion. With my true inner self. And dreadlocks seemed simply so natural at this time. So I let them grow, naturally, to show myself (and the others) who I really am. And I am now proud of the woman I've become. I still have anxiety issues, but I feel like I'm on the right path now. And my dreadlocks give me so much confidance.
I've returned in the woods where I was born to live a peaceful life with my husband (we've been together for 12 years now) and our two cats. I have a deeply loving family, amazing friends all over the world and I feel great. I have a blog, I take photos, shoot videos, sleep when I need to, cook, work in the garden, stare at the starry sky and aurora borealis, walk on the beach and find treasures in the sand. Yep, life is great
So hey, nice to meet you all. Love.
updated by @la-renarde: 11/13/15 06:45:21AM