Suddenly having dreads was a huge chore, and I washed them about once a month because of how much time and effort it took to wax them each time.I felt cheated, and like an imposter. Locks had always seemed like a spiritual connection to the natural world to me, and Here I was spending hours on them at a times when all I wanted was freedom. I became pregnant with my first son, and his very hard birth and early infancy once more shook my faith in my body and my connection with nature. When he was 3 months old, I realized there was no way that I could spend so much time on my hair, and I cut my dreads out. I felt so defeated.Fast forward five plus years. I became pretnant with my third and final child, my first girl. Something began stirring in me that I hadn't felt in a long time. I began to want dreads again. I found this site and became inspired.I went on to have my second beautiful homebirth, and I got to catch my daughter myself in a warm pool of water. Her birth and our triumph over some very difficult early days began to heal some old pain that I had been carrying inside of me. I decided the time was right, and that I was ready, and two weeks ago twist and ripped my hair into sections (I would have gone natural, but I honestly think it would be very hard with my hair; and I wanted a little something to start with). I couldn't be happier! I know my hair will do what it wants, and I am so excited to be along for the ride. I can't wait to see my own, beautiful, unique locks taking form, and I am feeling so much joy starting on this journey from a place of authenticity.Thank you, everyone on this site, and especially Soaring Eagle for creating this wonderful community.Many blessings,Mama Jme
updated by @mama-jme: 01/13/15 09:40:18PM
