Alcohol can be one of the little pleasures in life. I have met many people who didn't like the taste, but none who didn't like the buzz. I happen to love both the taste and the effect it has. It makes me happy and more social. In fact, it is probably the social lubrication aspect thatIlove most. I can't remember how many good times I've had drinking, but I know that there were many a laughs had.
There are some problems, however. When you're raised in an environment where the goal of drinking is to get as drunk as possible, as fast as possible, there are bound to be some negative consequences. Fairly recently, I have discovered that whenIstart drinking I can't stop. There is something compelling me to drink more and more, faster and faster. What a fool I am for giving in to these impulses, and what a fool I must seem to everyone else in thevicinity. Slurring words, making jokes that can't be funny and basically acting the fucking eejit.
So, where do I go from here? Do I continue down this road of excessive alcoholconsumption, which could so easily lead to full blown alcoholism, should I try to moderate how much I drink or should I just quit altogether? It is probably worth noting that I have tried to quit before, and was successful for over two years. Again, in recent times, I tried to quit on a number of occasions but kept getting sucked back in. It's all these damn social events that have me fucked. They are just not the same unless you have a few drinks, but I can't seem to be able to have just a few drinks.
At this point I have to say that I am not an alcoholic. I do not drink every day. I only drink once a week, with twice being the maximum. But, one of my biggest fears is becoming an alcoholic. It could so easily happen when you are raised and live in a culture which places so much emphasis on drinking. And recently I have felt something within my drawing me towards drinking during the week. During the day, even. It's almost as if the part of me that had become so used to smoking weed everyday has changed it's focus, now that I have been off weed for a year. I've heard that it is a slippery slope. It's easy to slide down, but coming back up can be near impossible.
Advise is welcome, as is your account of whatever experiences you have had.
Cheers
updated by @kelly3: 02/14/15 08:27:59AM