No signs of slowing down!
Wool tams are great btw.. The wool pillow thing is optional, not really needed.. My tam has been the culprit to some of my greatest lock starting knots. :D I'm sorry to hear about both of your situations.. I can kind of relate. Wishing you both much love, peace, health and wealth! :D
Yeah, I hit bottom when my daughter was about 5. When I came out of the military she was 3 and I was almost non-functional. My experiences with coworkers and stuff just totally messed me up. I was able to give her the basics but nothing more. Things were bad for a few years more while I was in therapy to get things worked out. Luckily she doesn't remember any of it but I'm sure some part of her development was stunted by what I could provide at the time. She's an amazing person and I consider myself blessed to be able to call her my daughter.
We sound VERY similar. Getting rid of drama and finding the right dose of antidepressants was crucial for me to get back into the world. Okay, fine, I'm not REALLY in the world yet. I was numb for so many years. I cut, and did anything to FEEL something. Then I switched doctors and found out I was being severely over medicated. I went through a lot of therapy to teach me how to feel again and now I feel good, but I can tell all the other stuff is still just under the surface.
I care about people...but sometimes I can't care about them and myself at the same time. Or I can't care about them enough. Sometimes I only have the energy and ability to care about myself and my daughter. And that's okay for now. I just branch out little by little and pull back if it gets to be too much again.
Can you wear a wool tam to keep it out of your face? Last time I was here a few years ago, it was suggested to wear a wool tam often and sleep on a wool pillow case. I bought a cheap wool sweater at a discount store and slept on that for months! It really got things moving.