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I really want to put a few things in my hair so when I get the urge to run my fingers through it I will stop because I cant. Is it bad for my hair? Will it dread faster? Will it be more damaging. Keep in mind I havent even made it to a week! I have no real dreads... just tangles.

Also a husband update
not only does he tell me I am beautiful 10x more often after I told him I quit brushing, he is getting in to the idea. He told me that in 5 years(when the military has no say in his hair choices) he wants to grow his hair out and also have dreads. He kept talking and asking questions and he seems so very excited! tah dah!
not so "gay" now are they! :D I didn't tell him that I would think it would look really great on him cause I want it to be up to him but between us I think it'll be awesome!

now I need to figure out how to post a pic in this blog so you guys can see how nice his hair was in High School... I <3 hair. I cant figure it out. If you wanna see him check out my photos on my profile. comment if you know how to post a pic in a blog

Last night I got a wild hair up my ass and decided to take some pictures (where did that saying come from? It's hilarious but kinda creepy!). This was after I wrote the longest blog entry in the history of me... so excuse the ick.

I am a total nerd but I adore this picture.

It's like no matter how many times I clean the mirror there are still water spots.

Though blurry, I think this shows the texture pretty well

My two newest dreads are such rebels
I washed my hair after these pics... ignore the flakies *runs away*

There you have it. ME!

as a bonus:

here's my lovely Little at 10 months!

He got his looks from his daddy but his nuttiness from his momma!

Tomorrow I am going with my KU obsessed mom to Lawrence to see/meet some Bball players. I won't deny that I'm excited (Brady Morningstar is gonna be there. YUM!) but it's such a random thing for me to do. Mostly I'm doing it because I LOVE LOVE LOVE Lawrence,KS. Typically I try to stay away from our brother state (I'm from KC, MISSOURI; not Kansas City, Kansas) but that place is worth it. I like to think of it as a small Portland, OR. I've never been there, but it's what I envision. I'm most anxious to check out the dreadies who I was always too intimidated to look at, yet alone have a conversation (Ok, so maybe I'm still too shy for that, but one day it's gonna change).

ANYWAY I'm painting my nails crimson and blue in honor of my favorite basketball team. ROCK CHALK!

Yesterday was the nine week mark of the birth of my dreadlocks! I still love them just as much today as I did yesterday. I have some crazy zig-zags going on in the back and one loops thus far! I love watching the changes every day. As for my itchy head, It has completely stopped after I quit using the bar and only used the liquid shampoo.

As far as other things in my life, I now know why I have been an emotional mess. I'm pregnant! My husband and I have been trying for quite some time. Our son is almost 5, and I was at the point where I thought we'd never have another child.

I've had some complications with pain, but today we got the good news that everything is in place and forming just as it should be!

It's still very early in my pregnancy, so we are praying everyday for a healthy baby.

I can't wait to take belly photo's with my dreadlocks! HAHA

Hello out there, i don't usually have very great intro's but I've had an odd week. Sort of in a little funk but, I'm sure there will be a better outcome anyways. I've just had some criticism lately but i was bracing myself for it anyways. I just think it's so weird how judgmental and strait forward people can be, because I'm not like that at all. i never really put myself around people like that. But the past week Ive been surrounded with people like that and it's just sort of frustrating because of the lack of interest for someones person rather than their appearance. All of the ridicule just happens to be when my dreads are shrinking too. I'm totally fine with all of my my phases of dreading but I'm just more comfortable with long hair. I'm just baffled and need a little vacation or something. I hope my hair starts growing soon though, it used to be down my back now it's just a bit lower than my shoulders. but I've just been letting my hair go wild and free and hopefully i can do the same.

I am writing this entry with half a bowl of resin smoked (hey payday is tomorrow, we've been broke for 2 weeks!) and I'm thinking I will use it for all things vane.

You see, I am in love with nail polish and own too many bottles to be comfortable admitting. My issue is that I am afraid to post my stuff on a known blog because I'm not very good at painting my nails not at taking pictures, yet I feel I need validation for owning a undisclosed amount of polish. I figure to do this, I should start documenting where I feel welcome... where I believe will feel more "at home".

I am 28 years old (29 in August! Yikes!)

About my dreads; I have 89 of them. I recounted earlier and somehow I got 102 and my heart went all a-flutter about it. Could my dreads have multiplied? HA! Unlikely, I obviously double counted some. Derp.
Anyway, a lot of people think that is an absurd amount to have... I may be inclined to agree once they start getting longer and thicker. I love the thickness now. Most of them are about a sharpie's width, some pencils and a couple of magic markers spread here and there (I call them my Monsters).
After lusting after dreads for 7 years I finally took the plunge the day my beautiful son turned 9 months. I had a tad bit of help from BD (the father of our loooove child, I'll call Big Daddy (BD for short)) but not too much since he didn't have a clue what I was asking of him (lol, he gets better though). You see, we wanted to get pregnant again, but my body isn't ready and quite frankly, I doubt we are, either. I figured I would start my dreads then! TAKE THAT, PROCREATION! My best friend (well, I guess that's what she is...) helped me section off my hair. Originally we planned on her helping me with them, but I am a perfectionist and the anxiety I felt from her backcombing wouldn't allow me to sit still. I don't think she felt comfortable doing it, either, since she jumped at the chance to stop lol. So I took on the daunting task of backcombing/palm rolling my 22.5" of curly red/blonde hair. GAH! Each dread took me damn near an hour ... I uncombed and re-backcombed too many to count. I re-sectioned the back of my head with no mirror. Again, BD was trying to help, but I'm a blunt person (hehe blunt...) and I think my frustrated outbursts scared him (he is a meak man, sometimes... not that I don't loveit). So 3 weeks later, I was a proud owner of 78 new, shiny, frizzy, amazing dread babies. Yes, I said 78, because a few weeks later I took some monsters out since my hair was laying weird, most of them were divided into two... some three. I still have 2 "monsters", their texture is awesome and they are definitely tightening up faster than the smaller dreadies. I dig the fatties look on many, but they do not suit me.

So that was 5 months ago... well, some 3-4 but who's counting?
It was love at first sight, once I realized that I should stop obsessing over size or placement and take in my new hair for all it's worth.
I WILL NEVER GO BACK! Maybe. I'm sure one day I won't want dreads any longer, but for now it feels right.
They are tightening up nicely. Only 3 of them don't have crazy loopies. Some of the super loopy ones have colored hemp around them. I have no idea if it helps, but it looks pretty. The rest, well let's just say BD and I lovingly refer to them as "the nest" or "my controlled chaos" (C. Chaos for short) . I am sure that the frizzies will go down eventually. If not, I've had frizz my whole life so I'll deal. I think the loops are cute, but sometimes I wish they'd just LAY FLAT [round]! BD helps me out a lot, I can't reach the back of my head at an angle that allows me to palm roll and other times I just feel damn lazy after washing these babies so he palm rolls while I separate. I mean, seriously! can anyone actually palm roll the back of their head? I don't understand how people can maintain their dreads if they can't reach back there (?) .
I wash my hair I using a mix of different things... it depends what mood strikes. I have a bar of Dr. Bronner's Peppermint soap but it leaves a gross film on my hair so I only use it to wash my body (and I loooooves it. I also have a Tree Tree Oil bar from Trader Joe's. It's ok but it dries out my scalp. I have Trader Joe's tingle shampoo, too but I pretty much hate it. The best stuff I found in the Health aisle of a local grocery store. It's a Tea tree soap and love it. When my scalp feels extra skuzzy, though I use the good ol' no-poo baking soda w a diluted vinegar rinse (because, let's face it... washing dreads is a pain in the ass (especially if you have 89 of them!) and sometimes I don't get around to washing but once a week). I think I am due for a deep cleaning, but I don't want to do it until I go swimming a couple more times. How bad is chlorine for dreads? It used to turn my blonde hair green so I know, it's not good stuff... but how bad, really? I don't put products in my hair, especially since I have a very sensitive scalp.

A bit [more] about me:

As I stated above, I am going to be 29 in a few months. Do I "feel" 29? Nah. Even if I knew what it's supposed to feel like, I'm sure I don't. Most days I still feel like I'm 17, some days I feel 49. I laugh at farts and think burping contests are a great past time (though now they're beer induced, instead of soda/pop/cola). I love drinking and smoking weed and running through fountains (sometimes all 3 at once). Speaking of fountains, I live in the City of Fountains (Kansas City, for those caring to know my location on a map). I grew up in Midtown and wish every day that I still lived there. Common sense, however, tells me that maybe a street with crack heads breaking into cars for spare change might not be the best area to raise our child. Even the "good" streets have their issues. South KC is boring, but I feel safe and I'm not afraid to run out to my car after dark. I legit still have nightmares about some experiences I had when I was younger by living in the area. To my mother's defense, it was a good neighborhood when she moved there. Also speaking of my mother, she is my rock. We hated each other when I was a teenager, but as soon as I left for college things changed. She got calmer and I found weed-- I mean good friends and better outlets for my angst. Without my mom I wouldn't be where I am today. She is truly a wonderful woman and when she dies (hopefully no time soon!) I will have a huge, gaping hole in my soul. My mom hates tattoos. I want a million. I would have a million if I #1 had money and #B knew a great artist I could trust, who truly sees my vision. I want my first to be a Hanson tattoo. Yep, I said Hanson... MMMBop. I'm pretty sure "MMMBop" will be incorporated... I mean, that is the first song we all heard and either fell in love with, hated, hated to love, or loved to hate.

I don't have a lot of pictures of my hair, as I am usually behind the camera lot. I also wear my hair up a lot because IT'S HARD BEING A MOM AND KEEPING YOURSELF LOOKING SANE. I mean, seriously. My beauty routine went from taking 30 minutes to be presentable to 5 minutes IFI'MLUCKY. Some days I wonder if "presentable" applies to me at all (like today, I totally went out in an old dress with capri sweat pants under it. NOT CUTE, but functional as it covered my body.) One thing I've noticed and loved about this dread "freedom" is that I am more comfortable wearing whateverthefuck I want, because people are going to stare anyway. I've always had a quirky sense of style, I just diluted the craziness before. The other day I wore a rainbow of colors and felt beautiful. The stares don't even bother me that much anymore because I feel good-- so what if other people don't like it? I think those people are just jealous they don't have the guts to express themselves like I do.

So out of the blue I said to my husband "how do feel about dreadlocks" he said "THEY'RE GAY" and I said "really cause Im never brushing my hair again" and he said "DOIT! DOIT! DOIT!" I think he thought I was going to ask him to! Lol <3 a weight lifted off my shoulders! His is the only oppinion that I care at all about. Im so excited. I see people in the world and think they should totally have dreads! That how I know I am ready. This will be epic I hope it cures me from being vain and and caring how I look at the same time, I can already feel my world and life views changing. Man, I thought I was a hippy before... Its nice to have something to look forward to and to love and enjoy Im giddy like a school girl. Its like a new toy!

I have had my ups and downs and am ready to get back up again. I started dreading because I want to get in touch with my inner self and to further undertand my purpose in life. My dreads plus yoga and meditation have have given mea spiritual meaning on my pupose.I am in a journey of self discovery and haveuncovered many treasures with inmyself. I am ready to move on with thesenew findings at hand I am a child of light and pure energy.I love myplanet, my fellow beings, animal and human alike.I am ready to giveeveryday mystate of peace,love and happiness. I stand on top of hills, scream so loud to relive anxiety at times I weep for those that hurt I smile to a stranger in the street Ioffer a meal to the homeless and help animals in need. At times I wish this world was less chaotic and that we all could live in perfect harmony and just love one another for what we are. xoxo

so i have the Tip o my Tippy Toe in the water of this dreading shindig!!! 1 TnR dread behind my ear..... purely out of curiosity!!! maybe its a little lame but i thought id start somewhere!! think i may name it and keep it as a pet for a bit! >.< i am only joking of course. jus thought id take a test run at it!!

I took mine out after about a month last time (T&R) because they weren't staying in. I started them up again a week ago, spending way more time T&Ring each one, they are staying in wonderfully. I can't wait until they are longer and I can tie them up in knots (my top layer is a little longer than my ears, and the bottom is a little past my shoulders). My dread babies are a month younger than my son, :0) I plan to stay home with my boys and homeschool at least until they are in high school, so no worries on employer stress. I'm so grateful to have the freedom to stay home and raise my boys.

Well, dreading my hair has been the best thing I could've done in terms of my confidence as well as my outlook, patience, etc. It's such a cliche, I know, but it's true, it's helped me a lot. All in things I never expected it to make any difference with. That said, there's one thing it can't really help with, and that's feeling self-conscious over my eczema/sores. I have this huge, deep sore on my forehead at the moment, and I went out today and no-one even looked at me twice. It's a huge relief to feel like I can go out and not be seen like a freak, because although things like that usually don't bother me, it's not particularly pleasant.

Anyway, I went to my nan's house to see her after going out and it was petty busy. My uncle and auntie were there, cousins, one cousin's friend, etc. Everyone was fine, but the friend of one of my cousins just stared at me for literally about thirty seconds. She didn't say a word to me at all, just stared at me. That made me feel really self-conscious. It's annoying, honestly, cos that's what kids do. We're all curious creatures, but kids are the ones that openly stare or say insensitive things. She's a couple of years older than me, so I would've thought she'd have had the maturity to not openly stare at someone without saying anything. At the very least, you can ask about it. But to just stare at someone like they're an outcast is just...rude and insensitive. I don't mind people staring regarding the dreads, cos that's my choice, I love them, so why would their opinion bother me? But this is different because it's not something I choose, it's something out of my control and that I aready feel bad about.

Rant over, basically. I'm not a confrontational person whatsoever, so it's nice to just be able to let it all out on here.