Decided to voice some frustrations, created a group for this freak out support but as there is no members ill just blog for now, here is my tnr pic : think its been a couple of weeks and lately i have ALOT of hair that just seems to be hair:

the back basically has 1 or 2 pencils left, even after experimenting it all felt tight and really locked but eventually after being left alone fell out...Now i know this is normal bt its is VERY frustrating, especially when the few people that were like 'oh ok you have dreads they look ok' are now like 'they have all fallen out why dont you jst brush your hair or get it done properly' I have defended myself saying its natural but even I feel a bit annoyed ...

If I didn't know better I would be stabbing myself in the head with a crochet needle by now for sure as patience is not my virtue. (if you ever do next time you have shower see how many bits of hair you have in your hand when washing may indicate whats really going on with crochet)

Just in case anyone asks : I only washed 2 -3 times a week with water and on weekend bs and acv never towl dried just air dried and slept on wool pillow. I assume the length is a major contributor but as ive seen a lot of timelines Im not really seeing a problem rather just a annoying side effect of having to wait it out.

Seems even having them tighten at first will unravel ( i have no doubt about the water temp and what happened in my experiment will be beneficial at later stages but not so much for the initial stage)

Still its all rather depressing and hard to explain to people what i am up to so to say, especially when you see crochet and people getting extensions may look extremely fake and have no spiritual sense whatsoever but compared to a rats nest it kinda makes ya think or rather get annoyed at my own vanity.

Also most of the beads fell out even tho they were tight but theirs actually nowhere to put them back but alas what can one do but stop thinking about it really...........