By Trina Sandress, 2014-05-23
It has been quite a while since I have came here. My life has been very busy and creative. Some ups and downs and that is life. I have been making these fabric beads that are made from recycled fabrics and many different thread colors. I thought I would share this for those who enjoy adorning their dreadlocks. And for those who do not want to color their hair but want color on them. I have also made a series of videos on how to make them as well.
I still walk through the world with people looking at me like I am an alien and I still get the rude comments. All of this makes me stronger and more convinced that being an individual and expressing myself how I want to is my prime reason for being on this earth. I hope that you all feel free to just be your self. And get outside and enjoy mother nature.
I also have some videos on how to make paper beads. I am so pro recycling. So please feel free to check out my youtube page. You can find me on youtube under the name Trina Sandress. I also have some videos based on question people have asked me about how to care for their dreadlocks.
You can find my art creations at www.darkmoondoll.etsy.com
By Trina Sandress, 2013-07-13
16yrs going strong. I knew once my hair started locking that I was in it for eternity. For me my dreadlocks mean freedom. I am free to be me and to love me for what comes out naturally. I have faced many confrontations and giggles and snide comments behind my back waiting in line at grocery stores,people shouting out of their windows "You nappy headed nigger" but you know I have become immune to all of their negativity. It bounces right off of my aura because I truly love who I am and know that I only want to be me and not some commercial version of a human being that society expects me to be. I am liberating myself, constantly growing,and becoming more and more confident within as the years go by. I hope you all are enjoying life and staying drama free as much as possible.
By Trina Sandress, 2012-10-07
I took some time out to make a couple of videos apologizing to a beautiful soul that I wanted to say sorry for saying hurt things,and trying to control what decisions this person was making for that person's life path. Changes can be a challenging lesson. I know that I have to walk through my fears and face my challenges. I hope truly that this wonderful person will forgive me.
I had a perception of how things were and then everything changed within an instant. It through me off balance and I reacted in a way that I am really not proud of. I hope this person reads this or watches my videos because I really truly and honestly feel sorry.
I have decided to just allow this person to have their space and if that person is ever interested they can feel free to contact me anytime. Because I really do want to be friends. I would not want to miss the chance to have another good friend.
I decided to share these videos because hopefully someone can relate to what I am talking about and going through and learn from it. I have learned a tremendous amount this year thus far and I am happy that I even was lucky enough to meet such an awesome person. I have no right will I ever have the right to tell anyone how to live their life because what works for me may not work for others.
I am taking time to declutter my house and organize my life more and it is helping me to see the world the way it really is. I am living in the moment of now. Right now, I am sorry for the things I have said. The words are out and I know better than to just spout out words out of anger and sadness to someone especially when this person has been nothing but supportive of me and my art and my life.
I never wanted to disrespect this person. And I think I crossed the line. I am going to hope and wish for the best for this person and their family and bless them all because they are beautiful people living their lives as best they can.
This Fall Season for me is a time for deep reflection and very important insights. It is truly very important to take of care of yourself and make yourself healthy so that you can be a healthy person for friends and family. And I am not talking just about food and nutrition and exercise. I am also referring to the mind. Being mindful of you say and do and how it affects others is a healthier way of living. Ranting and raving about something that I can not control is going to make things worse for everyone involved.
I am feeling much more peace within my mind,body and soul for admitting these things to myself. I believe that this is the only way that I can move forward and create positive changes in my world.
I am living life the best that I can and I will learn from my mistakes so that I will not repeat this in the future.
This person is awesome,wonderful,talented, and amazing! And I now can say that I am truly and completely glad that I met this person because if I hadn't I may not have learned this important lesson.
Insights that I am having are helping me to understand fully.
I will always and truly be available for friendship if this person is interested.
Peace and Love to you all, Be kind and patient with yoursef so that you can be kindand patient to others as well.
By Trina Sandress, 2012-07-09
Today marks the 15th year of the journey into being a freeform dreadie. I still believe that I will have my locks for as long as I live. I have noticed that I still get the dirty looks and outright rude comments. It all just makes me stronger because the people who act in this manner still have many areas of their life that they are unhappy with and instead of focusing on better themselves they have distractions to keep them from growing to be a better soul on this planet.
I have learned to seperate myself from such individuals and to live my life being as authentic as I can.
Be true to yourself. Let no one tell you which path to walk on!
By Trina Sandress, 2011-07-12
When I was a little girl in this big world I didn't believe everything my parents or other grown-ups told me.
My mom told me I had the type of hair that just doesn't grow. And praised my brother for his thick coarse hair and how much faster his hair grew than mine and how much longer his hair was as compared to mine.
But then I questioned her about her assumptions. How could she say such things when every time she would comb my hair yanking at it I would see tons of hair in the comb. To question her would be considered talking back and that just was not allowed in our household. She was right and that was the end of the discussion.
I observed a lot of contradictions as a child. I didn't talk much so I was always considered the shy girl. I just noticed that many people especially adults would say one thing and then do the other. I knew even at a young age that there is so much more than meets the eye going on.
Unfortunately I didn't have anyone at the time to talk with about these observations. I just wrote about this kind of stuff in my journals because I knew in my mind that noone I knew would be interested,or would think that I was crazy.
I saw each year bring about more and more contradictions but trying to be put across in a much more sophisticated way. You can't polish a turd and tell me things aren't as they seem!
My point of this blog is that I like to judge for myself and not take someone's word for how reality is or for how my reality is suppose to be. A lot of the women in my family are obese and one has diabetes but it doesn't mean that I am doomed to live that same fate just because I was born into this family. I think it is lifestyle choices. These lifestyle choices have an energy surrounding it that I can resonate with or decide not to.
It is a hard concept for some to see but it is my observation only.
By Trina Sandress, 2011-07-10
Today I celebrate my 14yr. freeform dreadlocks anniversary. In 1998 I began my journey into becoming more of my natural self by leaving the combs, brushes,commercial shampoos,etc... behind me. I have learned quite a bit about my hair that I was not aware of. Mainly that I don't need to do anything but keep them clean and they will form all on their own.
I have dealt with a lot of negativity in the beginning but the strange thing is that the longer they get the less threatening they seem to people. Mine are in all kinds of sizes and shapes and lengths and I love it. It is so totally freeing not waking up and wondering how to wear my hair on any particular day. I have saved so much time and money!
I found that ever since embarking on this journey I have becoming more and more confident within my skin. I came from a large family and don't talk to any of them anymore. My mom thought my locks were disgusting. And after all of the negativity she expressed about my appearance I disowned her. I got rid of a lot of negativity in my life. And not too long ago my mom passed away. I didn't go to see her on her death bed or go crying at her grave. She never could accept me as I was. As an artist,an individual and not a clone of America.
I hope you all feel free to be who you are because it is a hell of lot easier than trying to please the masses .Be you and be proud to be you!
By Trina Sandress, 2011-07-03
Last week me and my family went camping at Peninsula Campground. Nothing like camping a few steps away from the Folsom Lake.
By day we swam in the river, walked around taking photos of lizards and weird looking bugs.
By night we listened to sweet rhythmic music of the cricket songs. They were chanting so melodically that it helped to distract my ears from the somewhat annoying sound of the ducks. The ducks made sounds like they were unhappy dogs barking madly.
When we came home from our trip we could here the sound of one lone cricket somewhere in our house.
My husband found it just today hanging out in our cupboard and set the sweet little one free. We can hear chirping happily in its new home.
Oh how I love camping. Please get out and camp some time and try using a tent. Sleeping outside is good for the antennaes on your head. You may get some wildlife trying to send you some healing messages that you can use in your daily life.
By Trina Sandress, 2011-06-19
Dreadlocks In The Matrix
I walk freely
I stand with my head held high
My dreadlocks blow in the breeze
I am as wild as wild can be
I here someone shouting
"Hey why don't you buy a comb"
I smile and know the truth
The truth that this crazy person
Took the time
To yell at me
Because I stood amongst the borg
That I pierced the veil
That I see the matrix for what it is
And for it will always be
It is a trap
Me I'd rather run and play
And be immersed in creativity
In the mirror
The one you'll always love