OK, so I haven't been online for about a year or so.
my sweeties r looking wikkid, I'm doing reasonably well (aside from every second week the kids bring something home) but I still feel like things r missing and there are more things I can do, I just don't know how to or how to handle it!!!
how do you make people sit up and actually listen to what you would like to say? how can you make them realize how aggravating it is that they would let fellow humans suffer, and worry about their revenue, or their comfort of lifestyle, how do you tell them that, surprise surprise, the world ACTUALLY does NOT revolve around them?
I wish there was a way to tell them to wake up, but unfortunately, there isn't the only thing for it, is trying to let them see there really is good people in the world who would look kinder on people's safety and care and knowledge rather than people caring for there own personal gain!
how do you do such things without being made to feel guilty, and told that you are doing the wrong thing for sending revenue to other countries? ESPECIALLY when your country is outsourcing many of the equities to other countries in the first place such as jobs, real estate and education, but then for personal ideals and reasons posed in the same way it is wrong?

okay, soooo,
I've had an interesting night!
we have a vegetarian living @ our place for the last day, and it's GOOD, but interesting, he's an interesting person, definitely a wealth of knowledge, to me being a meat eater, but also a VERY VERY nice guy, but also, he's helping my partner see the benefits too I guess, but i never thought I would feel so aligned with someone, should I try being vegetarian for a while? he seems to think it really clears the mind and makes you notice things you wouldn't otherwise REALIZE! not saying it's inappropriate or even right, but just new, and something I have been toying with for trying for a while!!!

this could be my answer to try something new, what do you think???

IF WE ONLY HAD OUR RIGHTS FOR ANOTHER DAY.......
what would we do?
stop and breath the fresh air,
or waste it petulantly on technology and worrying about time?
IF WE ONLY HAD OUR RIGHTS FOR ANOTHER DAY.......
would we take into account that we are lucky, and that YES, there actually are more people out there who need their civil rights restored?
IF WE ONLY HAD OUR RIGHTS FOR ANOTHER DAY.......
would we really be so cruel and selfish just to think of ourselves and not worry about how many people are merely dying without a scrap of food, or even one little shred of dignity, OBVIOUSLY not how they would like to be remembered, but do we notice they don't have the choice?
IF WE ONLY HAD OUR RIGHTS FOR ANOTHER DAY.......
would we maybe stop all this foolishness, and realize that we aren't the only ones that live in this world, there are plenty of other life forms here too.
IF WE ONLY HAD OUR RIGHTS FOR ANOTHER DAY.......
would we really need to worry about money and the conformingly growing desire to possess it, own it, use it and store it?
what would we do with that money when we die? leave it to family members, or friends, why not pass it on since we'll have no use for it in the grand scheme of things!!!!

so I have a spare moment to post,
I'd like to say thank you to everyone for reading my blog and comment on pix and things, as well as I'd like to say a very much appreciated thank you, to all you lovely people here on this site, for welcoming me with open arms and open hearts, it is a very warm loving community I have noticed,
This is something very powerful to me, I've been having all kinds of trouble, and been UN-abled to communicate with ANY of the people I know of late, and this is a somewhat disturbing fact to me, growing up as someone who was a very very social person myself, and always being around friends and loved ones, so I began feeling lost and wondering if I'd ever be able to find what I felt I was missing.

I was so intensely lucky to stumble across this brilliant page, made so pleasant and thoughtfully for people feeling the same way. I am just flabbergasted at how many other people there still are out there feeling almost exactly the same as me, and I am so glad to be able to freely speak out about it and not worry how people are judging or what they are thinking, because I know it's okay to disagree, and there's no problems, but allot of my friends of late are really really bugging me so horrifically, I feel as though I cannot breath around them any more

I hated feeling pessimistic and dis-heartened, I really thought I was actually losing my mind because I was talking to walls all the time, or at least that's what I thought, that's how perceptive and caring my friends were at the time, and I felt I was just running out of rope, and then, I decided finally to do my Dreadlocks, so I went searching for a few months looking for some pages, but they were pages either with Lack of information, or they would list seller's or salons and explain EVERYTHING on the positive side of products and different methods, but I also noticed allot of them POO-HOOED the natural way, and really pushed for the natural way as a style of "NEGLECT" this is sad, when natural begins to become "NEGLECT" and ALTERNATE, but none-the-less, that's off on a tangent.

When I found this page I was totally skeptical about the "NEGLECT/NATURAL way, so I thought, yeah why not give it a day or 2 n see just how that FEELS, so I did, but I was still slightly unsure about it all, then I started asking people on their washing methods and everything, and practically everyone on this site, suggested baking soda/sea-salt and a little lemon with some oils, so I mixed up some baking soda with sea-salt, a touch of citric acid (at the time as a substitute because for some reason we r out of lemon, AGAIN.... good on pancakes, might explain y, nom nom nom)
I used about 2 cups of cold water and 2 1/2 of boiling water to dissolve all of this, I had seen a post earlier on the site for this washing, because I was worried on touching and fiddling, although at the time I had plaits, not proper dreads, (only about a week or so b4 my dreads, to help along with the sectioning, and it worked a treat) so I'd seen someone suggested a good technique was lying upside down on the couch as long as they could, so I took this to mean they were soaking their hair in a makeshift basin with the solution.
Any ways I gave that same idea a go, to soak all my plaits n hair to clean it, and that is the biggest turning point for me for why I chose to do as Natural as possible as I could with my dreads, that and all the products and other methods, just FEEL like they r taking away from the very essence of being human, and being in tune with your mind body and soul.
as well as I easily believe had I of used the products, my dreads wouldn't be as lovely and exotic as they are.

I am truly in love with my dreads, just like I am truly in love with my absolutely gorgeous partner, who means the world to me, and without him, I don't believe I would have the courage to be myself, let alone stand for what I honestly believe in, he's helped me through some very emotional times, and although I am aware the relationship is still young, I can safely and easily say I can see a many more happy years and decades to come with him, we have been together for 2 years, but I feel as though we are so in tune, it's just wondrous and miraculous, every day spent with him is a day I will never be able to ever forget, and I wouldn't want to, after all, he's my light and my rock, he's one of the most important inspirations to my life, because I feel without him, I wouldn't be able to take this existential journey, or the big first step to start my dreads, and had I not have found him, I FEEL as though I would just be another mindless droid, sucked into the consumerism, ethical and moral decay that has become our modern society.

one of the things that I love about him is how he's showed me much patience, and he's showing me how to live harmoniously within myself and all my surroundings.

So I hope you can take something special away from this, just like I felt I was giving you something special, a part of myself, and hoping that you feel as inspired and calmed as me reading this, as I feel whilst I'm writing this, it's a very therapeutic past time for me writing so I really hope that I am able to do as much good for someone, as I believe Glen has showed me.

Peace and happiness all around for everyone

CHANGE....

so what does change mean, something good or something bad???
most of the time I find this concept difficult to deal with as I touched on in my "introduce yourself" blog and I often find myself wishing to revert back to childhood, when change meant little more then clean clothes, or more commonly a term my parents would use for the weather, or as I remember telling them many times growing older....CHANGE THE CHANNEL, I HATE THE NEWS!!!

Now this was a big topic of discussion for my father, he loved watching the news, just to keep up with current affairs, now I'm not sure of his standing but being old, senile, and set in his ways I'd say nothing's changed, although now he complains about the news as much as me!
I've found over the years, the news had been gradually getting worse and worse, SADDER and SADDER, to the point it's beyond a joke, instead of talking about meaningful matters like how much people are trying to make a difference and help each other, or how kind people selflessly talk to people in need of friends and help, where has all the nice stuff about the marvellous salvos helping people gone, why don't we hear about people being generous and giving donations, or helping with volunteer work?!?!

The media won't allow it, because we seem to be thriving more and more on negativity as a whole, and it's a viscious cycle that will not end until something in the balance breaks.
The media thrive on destruction and peoples anguish and hurt, otherwise they wouldn't flash graphic images, to try and guilt people for no apparent reason, just like if the media as a whole, was more productive and empowering, showing more positive stories (and no I'm not talking about little 16 yr old Suzy going overseas for Olympics) stories, such as people helping each other find homes, helping feed and dress each other, or even just people showing their will banding together for peaceful protests for things that mean something more then just materialistic values, MAYBE then the world wouldn't be in such a huge state of unrest and dis-repute.

here's a story from a dear friend of mine I've grown up with, she's recently moved to the other side of Australia, and someone told her she was
"SOOO white it's almost UN-australian" WHAT THE HELL IS THAT?!?! she's more Australian then me, and they r telling her she can't be because she's very fair skinned, now see what the media has denoted us to? All the way down to the point, we cannot celebrate Christmas in catholic schools, a majorly consistent concern is of peoples race or ethnicity rather then the problematic things.

How have we found ourselves up the proverbially without a paddle, to the obscene point, that unrealistically I might point out, SOMEHOW, metal, is more valuable then a human life, REALLY....
Something is going to give soo and when it does soooo much is going to CHANGE.
Like I said I'm none too fussed on change myself, but that's because I haven't seen very many positive changes, the media is worried about racism, sexism, gender re-assignment, and everything, that humanity as a whole should not be worrying about, shouldn't we be more worried about how many children we are UN-able to get off the streets at night, and be positive about the ones that we can strive to make an improved difference for, why do we need to be foolish and poke holes through each others religions, or make a big fuss of other cultures being different or "wrong" because it doesn't adhere to our ideals and beliefs, instead, why don't we embrace it and say, sure it's not my belief or what I know, but hey that's what they know, and it's working for them, just like my beliefs are working for me...

so REALLY PEOPLE why do we value metals and stones at a much higher level then human life? this is the high reason for the point of many peoples distaste, and aggression towards society and humanity, and then we go and encourage this terrible rawkus behavior by plastering it ABSOLUTELY EVERYWHERE, ad sticking it in everyone's face, this is doing nothing but causing more chaos, rather then alleviating any of the pressure in many many ways, what about putting weaponry money, into improving the quality of ALL human life, and the left overs (which would still be tenfold) into areas that need it, such as food supplies, rather then shipping rubbish food from everywhere, laiden with chemicals, and genetically modified strains, into farming, and stop building high rise buildings, they only set us up for destruction chaos and they r no good for ANY ONES HEALTH, humans re-act better with a variety of scenery, and it's twice the benefit and joy for our health having more flaura and fauna around, aesthetically AND emotionally!!!

We all walk around like zombies, rushing, running "socializing" online, do we even have 5 minutes to sit and have a coffee with friends and ACTUALLY take a deep breath?!?!
the way our modern day world is going, we'll be making "allowances for man made chemicals to keep us awake, just so we can WORK at night, all for what? to watch life pass us by?

like they say, life is what happens when ur making other plans!!!!

So next time you feel upset or worried about a trivial minimal thing like your hair/nails or make-up, try worrying about millions of suffering children, or how we can put more value on scrap metal then precious beings that only care to live a HUMANE life, which should be a basic right, but isn't, and then weigh up what you think is REALLY a global matter!!!

Think about it people think about it...
and please, make a CHANGE, BE NICE TO ONE PERSON, OR HELP SOMEONE ACROSS THE ROAD, don't be a cruel heartless bastard that thinks they can change things just by reading my blog, or or procrastinating!!! because if all of us decided to put things off till later, then for everyone who WANTS FAITH IN HUMANITY, there couldn't be any hope!

so if you take ONLY one message away from this, please remember, we really really need CHANGE
otherwise we'll regret not trying to reach out to others and at least TRYING!