Reality is neither inherently beautiful or disgusting, it simply is. True emotion surpasses language and words, and strike the soul like prismatic lightning, rumbling for better or worse long afterwords while you reflect on the burned image still fading from your mind's eye.
Balance your energy, get into a healthy routine, even out your diet, and take charge of how you feel, and your life.
Combination of things hypnotic openers placed in water supply/foods/drinks and others to supress pinal system which lowers psychic defense and allows for malipulation of mental/emotional centres (slows down DMT production), programing of mind within certain limitations of belief systems to create a ignorance barrior which prevents them from learning anything outside of the control matrix, relaying of signals via light frequecys projected by such devices such as tvs, radios, mobil phones, computers, lightbulbs, etc all devices capable of creates em frequecys can be untilized, there is a unique part which is used by them which is reason for gold in certain bulbs very conductive material but also allows to send signal across dimensional threshold from their origin of density.
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