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significance of money and why i loathe the summer

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maybe making new friends along the way. but shit!!! Isn't college going to all be about making a future?? like, my dad is telling me he wants me to go business school, and keeps asking me why I can't be like the highschool students he's always seeing who make tons of money sellings stuff on the internet or making their own businesses. pleassee I don't need another "you have to do what you want", I know that, it's just that I just don't think I could get myself to do any of that stuff! It scares me how unnapealing any of that sounds. So what does this mean? I'm going to be a manual labor man making minimum wage? And now that it's summer, I feel I have to make some sort of decision. I feel incredibly indifferent about graduating. while most are excited, and happy that it's summer, i've basically been loathing this time all year. what the hell am i going to do with myself for 3 months?? I want to make something of my summer, seeing that my past summers have just been terrible. In a way I even fear summer, as I know it will be a brick wall confrontation with myself, and dire questioning of my own aspirations. you guys happy about the summer? how did u feel about summer vacation after graduating?

significance of money and why i loathe the summer

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so now that it's summer, and i'm gonna be graduating highschool in a week, I basically start adulthood to some large extent. my father is constantly pressuring me on building a future, but this isn't really new, as he's always been doing this. but the thing is, I really don't know what I want to do! Look, I know money is important, I know you need it, I really don't want to get into that, but this whole desire to be rich and make a ton of money?? I'm not trying to denounce people at all who want to be rich, thats fine, but me personally, it just doesn't appeal to me. yes, i know i sound like just some broken record punk kid who thinks he knows everything, but shit! What the hell would I get out of being rich? I think cars are lame for one, so why would I want a super fancy one? And a huge house? personally, if your loved your loved, if your lonenly your lonely. I don't see how having a big house will change that. and do I really need a new iphone or ipad?? All I really want right now is to just enjoy life, learn, grow, and spend time with my family. as well as
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wondering how I should feel about life right now

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yeah i agree.. can't overcome that shit... thanks for the insight tho! I read it with great concentration. i HATEE FACEOBOOKKOKAOEKFOAKFA and yet. im addicted.. KatieK said:

Here's my opinion...feeling the NEED for other humans is normal. It's in our nature to be connected to others, whether that is people or animals. We crave affection, touch, love, and although most of us hate to admit it, acceptance from others. I know what you're feeling...you feel weak because of these needs. Just remember everyone feels what you feel, on some level. That's why places like Facebook are so popular..why texting and Twitter have exploded. They get us connected super fast, and KEEP us connected 24 hours a day if we choose. As for how you should spend your time, everything in moderation. Don't isolate yourself all the time, but don't force yourself constantly into social crap all the time either. One rule I started using when it comes to friends is...if there's not something about them I can admire, and if they can't somehow contibute positively to my life, I won't waste my precious time on them. Call it selfish if you want, but selfish isn't always a bad thing. Just don't deprive yourself of a basic human need. If you ask me, it falls right up there with food, clothing, and shelter...love, affection, interaction.

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OAKTOWN BLUH Sergio Escalera said:

MAN! Where do you Live!?
If you Live in California lets chill man i know exactly what you going threw. Hit me up.

wondering how I should feel about life right now

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you never cease to amaze me with your wisdom nick. i agree so much. we really are just dealt different cards. sometimes we really just need to realize that. GratefulNick said:

I've been in several "circle of friends" type groups when I was in highschool burned alot of bridges alot of fights and name calling. I stayed in isolation for a 3 years, I just didn't really care to face anyone and I guess I was depressed or something. But I got better and kind of figured I can't really blame any of my problems on anybody else except myself. Through all that bull I think I the only people I could really count on was my family, as much as i dislike my family but its true. I have a few friends that I really consider geniune good friends, that if I do a favor or they do a favor for me. Then I have friends that are nice, but don't really do anything for me.

As far as meeting new friends, I think you just have to be yourself, vs having a fake plastic smile persona that ppl see right thru like a act.- not saying you do but I've seen alot of false acting ppl in my life. that just do stuff or act a way to be liked.

Don't compare yourself to other people it will only make you angry or jealous. We're all kind of the same. But we all have been delt different cards to play.

I also get the feeling that your still in High School, I see maybe 5 ppl i went to High school with, be prepared to never see or hear from 95% of your graduating class.

Maybe you have social axiety or something. good luck

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hahaha! soaringeagle said:

get your ass to the gsthering..you'll be cured

wondering how I should feel about life right now

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thanks for that, and yeah i totally agree, but the whole imposed desire to find love is just too overwhelming... it's like everything i do, I just want to share with someone else...

wondering how I should feel about life right now

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wasting my time trying to get people to like me. like at school for instance. people generally like me, but fact of the matter is, they wouldn't ask me to hang with them or anything. so it's like i've been trying to get them to like me.. and for what? social groups are annoying. but the thing is, i can avoid all that. but in terms of the significance of friends, do we really need a ton of friends? people always say that its better to have a few true friends than a whole bunch of not true ones. but what makes a friend a true friend? Is it the fact that I see them all the time? that I've known them since I was little? what if I don't even feel I can have a deep conversation with? What if the one person I feel I have a true connection with, is the person who I've only talked to or seen a couple times? Is it wrong to strive for friends you don't have? What if your friends just don't make you feel good or loved? It is times like these when I just want to say fuck it, and tell myself I'm just going to live in my room all the time, and just work on personal goals. Writing a book, recording songs.. things I want to do, but damn frankly, I couldn't just work on those all effing day! it would be boring as hell and i don't have the discipline! so i can either force myself to stay isolated and try and progress in personal endeavors, throw myself into social situations that make me very uncomftorable, or just gawk at other people's lives on facebook. The last one, is one I hate to say, I do all too frequently... Why do I crave some one else's life? It disturbs me and scares me how unsatisfied and apathetic I feel about my life sometimes. I'm trying very hard to just appreciate everything and not take everything for granted, but I just can't seem to overcome this need I've created for human interaction, an outside life, and love. I want to create my own memories, not just dwell on those of others. sorry, just had to let that all out.

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of course. I must be thankful. for everything. I am so blessed it's disgusting in comparison to the less fortunate. but given just the my own high expectations i tend to force upon myself, just really confused... I really don't know whether I'm a social person or not. I enjoy talking to people, but really just don't like the whole social hustle and bustle of being thrown into situations where you have to make new friends.. well.. it's not so much that as, I hate being thrown into positions where you have to try and project your own image in order for people to like you. and now I'm at a point, where I'm just trying to distinguish who are my real friends, who aren't, and who are just good acquaintences. there are the people I feel i can approach and just talk to, there are the people i deeply admire and would WANT to talk to, and there are the people who i just see around. Facebook tells me I have over 200 friends. Yea.. right... Do I really even need friends? of course I do. I can't try and convince myself I don't, but sometimes I really just feel like being alone. Hell, I'm a pretty solitary person, and frankly, I just don't like trying
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piecing together my summer

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kid whose parent's just buy him everything. like yes, my parents buy my clothes, my food, pay for school, and yeah, if I go out with friends, my parents will give me money. no i don't have a job. I just feel like... I should be making my own money, or at least have a job. I have mixed feelings though... like.. do I really NEED to work? not really. but I'm just tired of feeling like the only one who has never had a job. I kind want the experience and have something to put on a resume. I guess a lot of it is just to SAY i have a job, and don't just have parents who just GIVE me money. and don't even try to hide it, many people will look down upon that. so i might consider getting a job over the summer. so that would make my summer, having a job, and being in a punk band. so with those two assets of my summer, will make my summer a pretty much non-travel summer. but thats ok I guess, i mean, i wanna savor my last weeks living at home anyway. this eliminates the possibilities of hostiling in europe, and going to a rainbow gathering (sorry se I really would love to, but to be honest I just don't think my parents would let me at this age and alone). So alongside other endeavors like reading, and writing, and stuff, it looks like being in a band might be the main logistic of my sumer. the band would only be for the sumer tho. i kinda like that idea tho. just form a band for the summer..