Let's Get Personal
In a nutshell, I've been growing a bit in confidence, and my whole life plan of passing my a-levels, going to university and becoming a doctor with a stable, normal life has been chucked out the window. Because I've seen so many new exciting things this year (in the realms of spirituality and arts mostly) that I wouldn't be able to turn back to an orthodox lifestyle.
My baby dreads are reflecting that to the extent of I do what I want, for me, because I am not as afraid to be myself anymore, despite what people think I should do (including to get a job etc). My friend talked about getting natural dreadlocks (and this friend has been a penniless wanderer around england for many months now) and I've looked it up and been hooked ever since. I've also felt so liberated not using chemical shampoos and conditioners now (in fact I spent about a month before dreading my hair adjusting it to water washing only; it went through a period of greasiness and now it's like before but so much better and healthier!).
I've also always had problems with the way my hair looks ever since I became a teen and now I just love my hair. I honestly love it so much. My dreads are my babies.
And finally the spiritual aspect...I follow a somewhat pagan path - at least that would be the general classification - and it fits so well because I feel like I'm becoming, to put frankly and cheesily, more at one with nature. Not to mention the fact that when left to its own devices, hair becomes as tree roots! Wow! I still can't get over how amazing just that is, really. I actually didn't know dreadlocks were the natural state of things until this year. And I've seen myself with dreadlocks in meditation now, too, which I must admit made me so ridiculously happy.
I'm just totally enjoying the journey really.