You merely prove to yourself and everyone else how shut off you are man. All I hear is your ego screaming, saying your shut off from the universe, are unaware of your owninherentabilities, and deny what makes you human. I feel for you man, as I do the rest of Humanity who is in the same slumber as you. You have Love coming to you man. Much Love.
Remember, the ego screams, while the high self whispers.