Sad story vent/rant..
Keep the faith. I have a girlfriend who has alopecia and has lost much of her waist lenth hair. At first she was really withdrawn and depressed but after years of dealing with it she has learn to except herself and her condition. She truly is one of the most beautiful people I know and her hair has nothing to do with it. Make sure you dont bottle your feelings up inside, when you are sad or pissed off talk to someone. I hope that things turn around for you.