updated by @jasper: 02/06/18 12:11:45AM
It's not that they never saw anyone go natural, they just never put 2 and 2 together about all those people they saw with nappy hair were also growing locks. It take growing locks to recognize the intermediate steps you see other people going through.
Anyway, Parents have a tendency to think that what you do reflects on them. It doesn't, it reflects on you. Remind her that what you do only effects what people see in you, not her.
My mom is the same. She has hated my locks because they are uneven and nappy. Even after 5 years, she wants me to cut them and go to a salon to have them done "pretty".
Keep letting your hair lock. She can't forcibly cut it. She can make comments and be snippy about them, but if you just talk to her about your reasons, and not cut them off, she might not ever give in, but she might just stop arguing. My mom thought it was a phase. So for years afterwards she wouldn't let me leave the house without comment. But now it's few and far between when she says anything about them. She's pretty much gotten used to my having locks. She's still worried about my finding a job, but she is leaving that up to me.
As for guys with locks wanting girls with hair... That's absurd. I've got locks. My girlfriend doesn't, but that's for her job. Whenever she's got long breaks, I grab a few sections and tnr them for her.
But I digress... Guy's with locks tend to be more earthy and hippieish. They want girls who are pretty earthy and hippieish too. If they have locks, great. If not, then who cares. People generally are attracted to others with similar life views. It doesn't matter what they look like.
You're ex sounds like a total asshole. So I can understand her hating him. I wouldn't bother telling her or hiding it from her actually. Not really any of her business but she discovers it then you have a conversation. When you do, make the conversations about what you want and not about what she wants. You can address her concerns, but make it clear in the end its your choice.
Thank you all for taking the time to read through this and respond so thoughtfully! Baba, I am glad to hear about your personal experience that brings me hope that she will learn to accept them in time Thank you, you always give great advice. Also tied up in knots, I think the calm environment is key. Elke, so good to hear from a mother and you are right that I can not change the way she feels about it anymore than she can change the way I feel about it, so I will just have to let it play out and respect her opinion for what it is. Soaring Eagle, I just don't want her to feel deceived when she does ask about them and pull her, "When were you planning on telling me this!?" card...but at the same time I like the idea of not making any sort of production out of it and just letting the inevitable question fall, so I will think that over and as for the ex Baba & Soaring Eagle he had a lot of double standards. Strong opinions on everything but rarely the patience to listen for a response..it was tiring. I'm spending time working on myself for a while so I can learn to love me just the way I am and stop walking on eggshells for the person I'm with <3 Thanks again ~love&light
I can't help feeling that your discussion with your mother will go much worse if she discovers your hair for herself. She will be starting from a very negative space before you will even get a word in and that won't be helpful to your case at all.
Something that worked with my mother and me when certain high tension topics came up in our lives was writing letters. Sometimes we'd give them to each other to read and other times we just used them as guides for getting out what we wanted to say. It was a great way to avoid letting emotions run too high and saying something you regret.
You know your mother best though and this approach might not work for everyone.
Your desire to be true to yourself and achieve personal honesty in your relationships is something that can start now with your mother. She is one of the most important relationships in your life (I hope!) and to be truly happy in your relationships with people close to you you have to be real to them. Whatever that may bring.
Though my child is still a toddler I cannot ever see allowing something as simple as a hairstyle come between us. I know many parents talk a mean talk but when push comes to shove they want to love their child and have them in their lives.
I do many things my mother doesn't approve of. Made life choices that apparently make her very sad. But once I learned to be honest with her things got exponentially better. She knows now that harping at me does nothing to change who I am. All it does is make me distance myself from her. She doesn't want that so she keeps the harping to a minimum. I have to let her do a little. She's my mom!
Good luck to you. This seems monumental right now but once you've gotten to the other side you will realize that the mountain you climbed was actually an itty bitty molehill.
I should probably add though that my mom doesn't know about my dreads yet. But in my situation I don't live with her and in my opinion a hairstyle change isn't worthy of an announcement. Nothing she has to say about it matters in the slightest.
I have had to tell my mother much harder things though and we've always gotten through it. Come hell or high water she loves me more than anyone else does. I'm 99.9% positive your mother feels the same way.
I don't know about the writing letters. I never tried it. But Knots is right. You should be the one to tell her. If she finds out on her own, she'll be angry and assume that you were deliberately hiding them from her. Parents don't appreciate when you hide things from them. She might not like locks, but if she notices them without you telling her, she'll be mad from the start. You want to try to get into the conversation as gently as possible. Bake her cookies or something. lol. you know. Just find a way to ease the tension.
Knots, I hear you loud and clear. I do tons of things my mom doesn't approve of. I don't see her often at all, so I can get away with a lot without telling her, but she does get very upset easily. She's a typical jewish mother. She harps on every little thing I do or don't do. I talk to her maybe twice a week, and that's not enough. With her there's never enough honesty. It kind of bugs me. I don't mind telling her about what's going on. I've put her through enough. When I was a teen, I dyed my hair all the time, had 2 mohawks, wore all black, black nail polish and eye liner, and had tons of ear and facialpiercings. She dissaproved, but after talking to her and being open, she calmed down and realized that I was just trying to express myself.
Jasper, hopefully your mom will agree with Knots that she does love you more than anyone, and just wants to see you be happy. She doesn't have to agree with you. Tell her that. But all she has to do is accept you for who you are. No parents want their kid to be like every other kid. What's the fun in that. Every parent wants their child to be special.